Say what you'd most like to hear...

It'll be over soon.

Id love to hear (or read in a text) that my husband still wanted me, still saw me as his wife instead of a non-sexual creature known as a mom.

@blossombreathe

For when someone asks me if I

You are doing the best you can and are making the right choices. Be strong and follow through with your goals. Everything will work out and life will get back on track soon enough, but things will be even better than before.

I apologize for what i did/said to/ how I treated you - from all those who hurt me.

Ill give you everything youre asking for from me - from the guy Im involved with now.

Im sorry I couldnt give you what you wanted from me. You deserve better than me. I would have loved to be closer to you but knew I wasnt good for you. I miss you. - from my old, first adult crush that I havent seen since last year.

youve won a billion dollars! - from the lottery/government (lol).

all of your prayers/wishes will be answered tomorrow - from god/the universe

Here is an action plan that will actually work to get you, your health, and you family where you need to be. Don't worry you will have help every step until we are sure things are good.

"I want you and I want a live with you. It won't be easy but we'll work it out and one day I'll be your wife and we'll have our own baby and at the end it'll be you and I and we won't be able to believe how happy we are."

I want that so bad but I most likely won't get it.

even though you think you are worthless and disposable you're not. Forget those family members who tell you to go work retail even though you've stated numerous times that you want a job in behavioral health. They've chosen to live the way they did. You don't have to listen to them. You know what's best for you, not them.

don't listen to your old advisor who told you in a polite way that you were too dumb/ not good enough for medical school. Just because your grades were a little low due to your depression, doesn't mean you can't succeed and become a doctor. You know that's what you want to do. You've known it from the moment you got diagnosed with depression that you wanted to help people the same way those psychiatrists helped you. You've got some big dreams kid, go forth and achieve them all. I believe in you.

you are enough. i think you know it deep down and you just don't want to accept it.

i'm really prud of you for not relapsing back into self-harm. i know no one has said this to you, but i'm saying it now. I'm glad you exist. i'm glad you're alive.

be gentle with yourself & stop throwing yourself around like you don't matter. Because you matter to me <3

I am so impatiently waiting for the moment we meet and I embrace you in my arms, my love.