A bad day
I’m not even sure where to start. I’m feeling angry sad mad, everything. My ex and I broke up a year ago. We still ate intimate despite it not being a good idea. I still love him with all my heart despite the times he has hurt me and told me he can’t give me what I want. So I accept the small amount of time together I get with him, about once a month. He is married and I have known he is still intimate with his wife, as he has told me.
The way I have tried to navigate this situation Is, I ask questions when I need to know or set a personal boundary. I have always maintained that he can ask me also anything he wants as I think it’s only fair.
I told him about a month ago, I was dating again but no one in particular and nothing serious, so I assumed he was okay with it and I’d hear more questions when he wanted to know. I’ve also let him know that even though I have been on dates and am casually speaking to other people, that I have not been intimate with anyone other than him in the 2 years of our relationship and the year we’ve been broken up.
2 days ago we decided to have a nice day together, and I ended up getting buzzed after trying to keep up with his drinking. I told him I needed to lie down and take a nap, which I did. In that time, we went through my phone looked at all my messages pictures, etc, screen shotted them, yelled screamed at me and even threw things at me.
i do understand seeing that information may have been upsetting, but I would have never lied to him about any of it if he asked me. Also I feel as seeing he has been going back to
gis wife every time he had spent time with me, and even admitted to flirting with other woman, it is extremely hypocritical to be upset at me when he in fact has been dating other people as well.
I just don’t understand how he’s always said he wants me to be happy and he can’t give me that, and then betrayed my trust when yes, the situation is complicated and I can understand that, he and I have not been exclusive for a year and He knows that.
Illy heart breaks about this situation. I did start to date again but I know I only have feelings for my ex. Yes, it could be seen as wrong, but I honestly have been forth coming with all parties involved, my ex and the other men where I stand and what I am capable of, and yet I don’t believe I deserve how I was treated.
I doubt he will ever speak to me again, and it breaks my heart as I have cried over this man every day for a year and a half, and I just don’t know what to do. I am leaving him alone as I am not okay with his behavior towards me, nor am I okay with my reaction to the entire situation. Am I crazy for thinking he betrayed my trust? Is what he did okay
So he is intimate with his WIFE and flirts with other girls but you need to be committed to him?
I really do not understand so many people who feel the need to go through others peoples phone or messages especially since you were very forth coming and told him to ask you anything ....... this is a violation if you ask me.
i understand you have feelings for this man and so far have not found anyone else that you are drawn to as much .... but it could happen.
This guy will never be what you want him to be if you let yourself be his sidepiece and waiting for him to give you time....
@kindLime9521
I mean, I don't know what his situation is with his wife. If they're separated or have an open relationship or what. But if he's just cheating on his wife with you and then expects fidelity from you after you've broken up????
I understand that you're heartbroken and it doesn't feel that way now, but it kinda sounds like you're better off without him.
You deserve better then this. Start living yourself instead of letting your life revolve around him. He will never truly love you and will never be there for you. And deep down inside you know.