Long distance relationship .

Hello ,

Few Months ago i had some huge problems with the people that i talk to everyday(parents,siblings,friends,ex friends)...it was really hard for me to keep living like that , i thought there wasno meaning to my life , that i was nothing in their eyes...they hurt me everyday , i don't why...i did not do anything bad :/ . So I met a girl (her name is daniella)on interenet ​(She had a boyfriend) We talked everyday for hours, she was really special , she has brighten up my days , made me smile everymorning, she made my life worth living (She was better than my Girlfriend) ! We've gotten close...very close to each other . We had almost the same problems (my parenst were fighting and her parents hated her because she converted from Christianity to Islam "muslim" , so they treat her like trash and hurt her everyday) , we understood each other. One day HER boyfriend cheated on her for the 4th time, she was really hurt, i was there for her . Few days later , my parents went worse...very worse (i was mouring everyday) , my Girlfriend cheated on me :( (for the 1st time but she wasn't the 1st one who did this to me) I really loved her , i took our realtionshipseriously... that night , i called daniella , told her that i'm going to attempt suicide...she cried and begged me to not do that because i was the closest person to her , she only had me to talk to , i was the only one for her (same for me) because she lived in the middle of nowhere... i didn't listen to her , took some pills but not enough because i was so scared to die, my sister's fiancwas home and took me to the hospital , i stayed there for 3 days straight no contact with daniella...i went back home found on facebook a post about me that explains her feelings , when i saw it i got emotional because i understood how much she wanted me to stay in her life . She told me that she couldn't stop crying even her grandmother kicked her out for the whole day . Then Ifell in love with her , i didn't have the guts to tell her , still i was hurting myself because i couldn't be honest with her, few days (over 5 days) i called and asked her to not talk to me again (it was the hardest thing i've ever did)... she cried again :/ , she said it ... she said that she loves me , i got what i wanted but i wasn't ready to be in a relationship (i was hurt over 6times and daniella was way better than me in almost everything) i didn't say anything, hang up and blocked her from everything, as usual :( i couldn't stay without talking to her , i unbloked her and told her that i love her too , we texted and had a nice conversation . We remain a couple . I had some problems with the time (we had 6hours difference between us), i slept the day and talked to her the night (it's almost 6am here now) , i gave up on my "real friends"...i totally trade everthing for a girl . I couldn't lose her again...

Now everything changed on me, i want to get my old life style back , sleep the night and wake up the day , have fun with my friends again ... anyway i don't want to live like a zombie anymore . I love her so much to break up with her but i have a feeling...that tells me to do that not only because of the time but i just want to be single (maybe because i wasn't ready to be in a relationship i guess ?) still , i'm just afraid of me to get back withher again...

I don't want to make a schedule or tell her to stay up the night to talk to me or talk to her only the weekends .IJUSTWANTTO BE SINGLE WITHOUT HURTING EACH OTHER AND NOT GOING BACK TO HER AGAIN .

i'm now asking for her help , opinions and advices . Thank you all .