Please help cannot go on..
Hello,
needing advice. I lost my fiancée of 3 years due to making the worst mistake I ever have and I'm not dealing. I have always had mental issues, and was medicated for 5 years up until January when my partner told me to fight it myself and stop taking them. Then shortly after my place of work went under and said none of us had jobs. I had been in between jobs twice already in this relationship and was terrified that he would be once again disappointed in me and would have to support us solely off his wage which is hard because I have no family and have custody of my 15 year old sister as our mother died 2 years ago. So I stupidly decided until I found a great paying job again I would attempt legal prostitution in a parlour... why why why I do not know I thought I'd be saving my family and I. Now my fiancées sister found out and told him, told my sister and told his entire family. He's left me. His family hate me. And I'm alone with my sister trying to find room mates and a new job as I was made to quit my other part time job I had as it was close to the parlour. I tried to do 4 shifts there and ended up crying and hating it the entire time and literally could not do the work. This information does not matter to my man and his family they say it's all the same despite the fact I hardly worked and had stopped many weeks before it came to light. I ended up working with the lady who cleans the parlour helping her clean twice a week and that was it.
I need to get him back. Help!
@Natty139
Oh goodness, you describe so many stress factors in your life, no wonder it feels so hard for you. It strikes me you need to find yourself some support. Do you have a doctor you could go and talk to, or a therapist? You sound very alone there, but there's a whole community of people here, many of whom will relate to the issues you raise, and others who will show you compassion and acceptance.
I don't want to overwhelm you, so let me just remind you of this. You had the best of intentions, the need to find work, to support your relationship, to support your sister, to be independent. You should not be judged harshly for that decision, by others or yourself. You are doing your best in very hard circumstances, which in my book makes you pretty awesome - strong, resourceful, caring, responsible. I hear how tough it feels for you right now, but you have so many astounding qualities, you're going to get through this. One day at a time. You'll get through this.