To the Man who said he wanted to Marry me, I believed you.

I gave you everything i had

But......

Im walking alone now next to the calm water

Wondering where you are

Its like everything is way too quiet

And I can only hear you and remember the way your face looks when you laugh

This is pain like I have never felt before.

Like the inside of me is dying

And I pretend to smile:

At my friends

At your friends

At everything.

While inside I am crying, and screaming and falling apart

I loved you with my whole heart.

I lay next to you for more than a year, my head on your shoulder, my knee draped over yours.

I was ready to give you everything you wanted.

And it wasnt enough for you

You went looking

For another, for more.

Now, who is she? In the spot next to you? Are her shoes by yours at the door?

Maybe her dress hangs next to mine in your closet

Who knows?

I no longer have a table, or company. I eat my meals alone

in my room, where my soul shakes,

Where my heart breaks

Every time I think of you.