i dont kn0w what to think anymore, i feel its making me go crazy

@fairmindedCurrent648

Hey there, hopefully you are doing well. There's a few things I would like to point out;

Hi my name is lucas and im having a bit of a hard time, i dont know where to begin because nowhere does it feel lke the right place to but im in need of some kind of advice, i was in a long term relationship that lasted for about 2 years, at the time that we broke up i was the one who ended things, i was very upset at him for the way he would treat me sometimes (I don't blame you for doing this, it's important that both sides treat each other with love and respect, if one side keeps doing the same mistakes without improving then its understandable a breakup will happen.) and because i felt we would talk about what we wanted to fix but things would only change for a week, (This tells me you two probably had separated issues, and then you were both trigerring each other.) but dont get me wrong, not all of it was bad, for that matter the good times haunt me everyday. we were separated for 5 months in which i was so angry at him that i felt i was over him and started a new relationship soon after, after a month in both of those relationship and things not working out i came to realized i wasnt angry at him anymore and that i wasnt over my ex well call him alf for the sake of it so after some time and a lot of thought i spoke with him, things hadnt ended well but we both agreed we loved each other and agreed to work things out (Did you set some boundaries on what you were not going to tolerate? Did you make him earn you back? because 5 months was not enough time for him and you to make changes. If you two didn't do the work, improve on certain areas, learned from mistakes then it will always fall apart). two absolutly amazing weeks went by and it seemed like we were both in the same page (You two have separated issues from each other childhood, it triggers on certain moments and then it causes arguments) but things started taking a turn he started speaking about an open relationship and about being polygamis and then after an argument we had he confesed he had feelings for someone else but told me he wanted to be with me (This is very selfish of him to do) and he didnt want me to give up on us and leaned more towards being with me (This sounds to me like he wanted to be on this relationship not be alone, unsure if things would work out, it feels like he wanted a safety net first. He put more thought on himself than you). and that i meant more to him than anyone else but two days after cut off things with me to be with his new partner (This must had hurt a lot, you definetly didn't deserve this) and now its been over a month and we dont speak mostly becausee not even a week passed and he was posting pictures of him and his new partner kissing and being affectionate (when he wouldnt even hold my hand in public) (You did the right thing by not speaking with after the way he treated you, its unfortunate how he handled things, it must had been very difficult for you to see those pictures). he sent me a message that i felt patronising (Not cool of him to do, he should leave you alone) but meant well he doesnt follow me on social media but whenever i put anything on my story he sees it and heres where my problem lays, i make this idea in my head that he checks because he cares that he checks becasue he still has feeling for me but i also feel like making hes just trying to mess with my emotions, (We don't know why he is doing this, but it's just unfair to you after the way he ended things then got together with someone else after 2 days of the breakup) like he know he has to know that i can see he saw it and that i know he keeps posting pictures with his bf and quoting songs on the caption that used to be our songs what are his intentions what does he hope this will do, and i know no one can answer this other than him but i dont want to hurt anymore (It's strange what he is doing, but its best to stay away from checking his profile and pictures, it'll cause you more hurt. If you keep checking what he does then it'll take you longer to heal, besides would you really want a person like that in your life?)