Help

I will put the *TW* for some delicate souls here

Today was so bad that I called the 'soul support' for the first time (Switzerland does have a call line for stuff like that)

I'll cut the story bc I don't want to cry anymore today

I did not go to school today because of a hard test I did not learn too last week bc I just could not concentrate, focus and was slowly going down into my depression hole. At the table, while eating dinner my bf was on the phone with his parents and his dad asked about me, how school is going, my notes and work... Before I said smth his (my future) mom started and said 'Cami did not want to go to school so she stayed home, and tomorrow will do the same'

I was like... B r u kidding me? I asked my bf quietly 'was is she talking about, where do she knows, I wanted to go to school tomorrow tho' and he kinda ignored me... -.-

As long as I waited to hear something from him the long i got angry more and more

After all his answer was 'why are you taking everything so serious?' ME: wtf do I need to explain this to you again?

He: will you do the dishes today?

Me: no, I don't want to do anything rn

He: okay then we will have nothing to do breakfast or dinner

Me: then we will not idgaf

I stood up, went to the bathroom, let the water on in the shower and started crying to mirror while taking out makeup...

It was such a nice evening, i did my makeup after... A WHILE

I was an appointment by the hairdresser today, I felt pretty and confident again and was happy with the way I looked and THAT WOMAN DESTROYED IT AND HER SON GAVE ME THE LAST STONE TO THE MOUNTAIN OF STRESS I HAD

I officially hate her

And my bf you ask?

I did kick him out of the sleeping room, gave everything he will need for the morning to go to work, i told him I don't want to hear nor se him today evening or tomorrow. And I even gave him my drugs in case he will have a panic attack

Now I feel pressure put in me cause I don't know what it how he's doing its such a emotional CHAOS I want to scream, cry, hit him, hurt myself, break up, I want him to check on me idk...

I need someone to tell me what to do