He Cheated
I caught him last November. He made a profile on a swingers website while he was working away.
Swore it never went beyond messages. But he lied about the messages, deleting them all before I could see. Owned up eventually.
He vomited, cried, begged at my feet for a second chance. I gave him one, probably because I’m an idiot. But I gave him conditions. No more hard drugs (he had an issue I wasn’t aware off), only local work from now on, and therapy. Start therapy.
He left the job, came home. As for the drugs, he’s clean. Therapy though? Nada.
I think maybe I was in denial at first. Too scared to lose him that I insulted myself by staying. But as time has gone on, my mood does not seem to be improving. I’m angry, bitter and spiteful.
I’m still so torn. I know really, that I should leave. But I can’t.
How do I convince myself I should?
@mentalhealthmattersxo
It can be devastating to find your partner cheating, we totally emphasize with you.. it takes a strong person to forgive like you did..
You have free will to decide whatever you want to do.. We're counting on you to make the right decision that's in your best interests..🌲
@mentalhealthmattersxo
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Have you brought up the subject of therapy again?
I think that is a reasonable request .. yes, you let it go for a while but overcoming drugs etc. was a big thing to get past. You can still hold him to the deal which included therapy.
I feel therapy is important for anyone to get to the heart of the matter. If someone is tempted with connecting with others. There is a reason he chose to cross a line. He should really know his reason. instead of making up things knowing is the key to make sure it does not happen again. people do things even bad things for a reason.
