I can't take it !
I'm feeling so broken after finding out that my husband was having a 11 yr affair in our 5 year relationship, I always knew about his past but he hid this particular person that was like his second family just for me to find out it was a sick sexual relationship since he was in highschool and it's just so disturbing but more towards my self a steam like I can't get it through my head, I'm broke. Because he hid this for so long and I knew him way before highschool so I feel like guilty because I knew something was wrong , but In the end it just keeps getting worse and it hurts so bad that was his mom's best friend and I'm struggling to believe that after she cast him away because he was a bad influence towards his son could have led to his passing, i believe he found out before I did and then the visits he would go to there house and get payed to clean and pet sit and he stayed there for a while and it makes my stomach sick to think while we were together this whole time he was lying to my face, and this just hits harder because it's my second marriage and I just feel like I maid this mistake and I feel so much regret but also huge rejection after finding out his affair.
@casiacara95
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This must be deeply betraying.
And alot to process.
I'm so sorry this has happened to you.
And it sounds like from the off, it was a deeply inappropriate relationship.
You need time to heal, to process, you will go through a wide range of emotions.
Please be gentle with yourself 💚
@casiacara95
Lots of emotions and issues to deal with. do not blame yourself for not seeing something that was either well-hidden OR most would think the relationship was innocent. it is not a reflection on you and even if this is a second marriage you made choice without knowing.
If I read this correctly an older friend of his mom had an inappropriate relationship with a high school boy? Why it has continued even if he decided to marry seems odd but when keeping a secret often fear of others finding out and fallout. Sometimes a secret kept so long seems like something you cannot imagine the fallout.
Like a hurricane only after people start to clean up do they see how much or how bad the damage is.