I feel like a fake

reference to previous post anxiety! Dont know what to do.

I had a discussion with my husband and he told me that it was mever his intention to talk to thst friend(who is a girl) with the intention of cheating emotionally. And he was wrong for keeping her close and sharing about his life and work situations. he always consider her a friend and now as he seen that its affects me that much he said i will talk to her then block her from everywhere.

Hoenstly i became overly sweet since this episode. I fail to understand my own behavior. I express more and ask for more time. Try to spend more time with him. Before i never do this. If he is busy or want to spend time watching reel i just let him but now i dont. I txt him at his work about like good day and whaterver i never did this before. I do all these thing wothout realising why im doing this.

Am i trying to build what i lost during our 8 yesr of marriage. The things which lost in routine?

Fact is Im still hurt. During our conversations his vibes are totally like its not what you think it is. But as its bother you i will leave and pay attention next time.

I feel like a hypocrate. I am

Having hard time to trust him and still hurt. But with words and behavior im showing him love. Im confuse about myself.