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Theamani
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PathStep 2 Compassion hearts82 Forum posts65 Forum upvotes55 Current upvotes55 Age GroupAdult Last activeJuly, 2026 Member sinceApril 21, 2020
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truama i cant say
Trauma Support / by Theamani
Last post
 July 12th
...See more i had major trauma in my life. but im not brave enough to say it loud that what it is. or to tell anyone. i thoight that its better this way. but lately i am dreaming about it and reliving in dreams the same pain. i dont know how can i just make it go away without telling anyone. how to process it. or what to do about it.
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losing
Self-Esteem / by Theamani
Last post
 July 6th
...See more hello all. i use to be a high achiever during studies . now after ten years out of school and without any solid experience. and watching people going above and beyond who came to me for help. i just feel bad myself. due to some personal reason i didnt do proper job. just 8 months of part time and then small ventures. i never set my foot into the corporate world or working life. meanwhile i moved to another country learn that language not master it being fluent in it. these are my small wins. struggle with anxiety and depressio. and came out of it. but when i think of starting work again i have imense fear and shame. yes shame is the right word. for not trying enough not doing what others did. i lack confidence. i dont trust myself anymore. its not like i didnt try. but i got plenty of rejections, failed business, but now i feel like its not enough. ! i just feel like im a lost cause. why im sharing all that i dont know and i even dont know what im looking for here. thanks
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Feeling numb
Relationship Stress / by Theamani
Last post
 October 4th, 2025
...See more Im so mich hurt from my relationship that i feel numb. I dont feel anything..... there is just a sense of emptiness. I try to no think and it works. I just do things aimlessly. I dont think i can ever recover from this now! I dont know why im posting this here or what im looking for!
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Anxiety! But dont know reason
Anxiety Support / by Theamani
Last post
 September 12th, 2025
...See more I am having severe anxiety every time i got 2 min free. By myself i cant breath. Its soo hard to breath. I dont know why it happens. I have studied alot but didnt got opportunity to practice in market. Now i was doing some online certification and all the things inside i have already know i was not able to read it fully i got anxiety attack. Hard to breath and all. I distract myself alot and then i became fine. But still 5 min of free time and im again feeing the same. Its been 2 years i got depression anxiety and panic attacks intook therapy and solve my issues. Then it got better but again. carrier wise im no. I was top student in my university got gold and silver medals and now i lost all The confidence to evem apply for the job. May b my anxiety trigger from this or i have lost 3 pregnancies may be its stem from It. Hownstly i dont know why im feelings the way im right now. Is it wver get better? I dont know what i can do to be better tried therapy didnt work.
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Loss of pregnancies
Trauma Support / by Theamani
Last post
 September 8th, 2025
...See more For some may be its not trauma but for me it really is. I lost 3 of my pregnancies and its soo hard to cope up. Some days im fine but other days im not. I keep remember the due dates and if i got to know someone have babies in same month it makes me sad and i cry. Im not jealous of others blessings. I feel Happy for them but at the same time i feel sad for my kids and what ifs . I feel sad for myself. I miss them. I dont know how to explain my feelings and how not to explain What i feel. One day i was like i got it i process my grief and then there is a sudden trigger and i am back to crying and being sad. I dont know why im posting and what im looking for.
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I feel like a fake
Relationship Stress / by Theamani
Last post
 August 28th, 2025
...See more reference to previous post anxiety! Dont know what to do. I had a discussion with my husband and he told me that it was mever his intention to talk to thst friend(who is a girl) with the intention of cheating emotionally. And he was wrong for keeping her close and sharing about his life and work situations. he always consider her a friend and now as he seen that its affects me that much he said i will talk to her then block her from everywhere. Hoenstly i became overly sweet since this episode. I fail to understand my own behavior. I express more and ask for more time. Try to spend more time with him. Before i never do this. If he is busy or want to spend time watching reel i just let him but now i dont. I txt him at his work about like good day and whaterver i never did this before. I do all these thing wothout realising why im doing this. Am i trying to build what i lost during our 8 yesr of marriage. The things which lost in routine? Fact is Im still hurt. During our conversations his vibes are totally like its not what you think it is. But as its bother you i will leave and pay attention next time. I feel like a hypocrate. I am Having hard time to trust him and still hurt. But with words and behavior im showing him love. Im confuse about myself.
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Take time or jump to solve the problem
Relationship Stress / by Theamani
Last post
 August 28th, 2025
...See more Reference to the post anxiety! Dont know what to do. I have citied the main issue now i need you opinion what the best way to deal with it. Currently we are havinn financial and job related issue its kind of urgent in nature. As we are single income family. I have already clearly tel him my concerns. But now this new problem arise. I was planningn to have a detail discussion in a week. But woth this new job issue. I dont know is this the right time or not. Outisde stress is too much. If i decide to wait till this urgency solves it will be too late to solve the problem? With all the wait. Does it gives this impression that im fine with all this.....
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Anxiety! Dont know what to do
Relationship Stress / by Theamani
Last post
 August 27th, 2025
...See more im soo anxious about my husband having emotional bonding with another women.! I talk to him and he said he wont talk now. He admit his mistake and said sorry. But i cant believe his words. even if i try i failed to do so. I remain restless... and anxious all day. I dont feel like eating. honestly i freeze. I dont know what to do to help myself. Then these thoughts comes into my mind that the next time if this happen i will divorce him. I cant deal with this ***. We have a son. Then again there is custody and legal stuff, thinking about them makes me nauseas. And throw up. I dont want to destory my kid childhood. He is a happy kid. He loves his dad and mom. I dont wamt to destpry what i build in 8 years. Im feeling soo helpless. I dont know what to do.
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