I messed up
Hey guys,
I cheated.
I feel like a loser. I feel so much regret for what I did. My boyfriend did everything for me. Took care of me after surgery. Took me on a trip for my birthday. Did everything for me. I messed it all up. I ruined everything.
My ex boyfriend called me and I called him back. Multiple times. I don’t know why I did it. It was a weird familiarity I couldn’t get rid of. That’s my fault. Only God knows how truly sorry I am, but how do I get anyone else to realize? How do I even get that message across? He’s so angry. He has every right to be, but wow do I deserve this pain? This hurt and remorse? Maybe. I just wish I could fix it. I feel like a bad person.
I don’t see us getting back together. He told me to my face, if you ever cheat, I’m done with you. I’m leaving and never looking back. And here I am calling my ex boyfriend. What an idiot.
Will this feeling ever go away?
The pit in my stomach?
Please say it goes away.
@itsdachickiz
These feelings do pass.
I can't speak for your bf, with space and time, he might be ready to talk, if not, you'll have to accept this, as hard as it is.
You are not a bad person, you are human and you made a mistake.
You cannot control how your bf feels, even if your intentions werent to cause hurt.
In time you'll heal , it's important to learn from this 🩷
Everyone thinks their pain in superior unless the see others. I'm glad at least you accept and trying to get him back.
Like I always pray for couples. In my scenario my GF cheated me never accepted it even after showing proofs and she she blamed me in return and we did break up 7 months ago. I found out another proof of her cheating on 25th of May 2026. And I don't think whatever I was trying to do for her I won't do after knowing. I forgiven her 50 of times her cheating but I'm dumb. Cheating stay scar like stink nail even if you remove it will leave its marks. I hope you understand. By Time either it fades or dies but never look like same before.
I hope you take care of yourself 😊
@itsdachickiz Making mistakes is necessary sometimes. the guilt and hurt you're feeling will be your lesson, through it you'll find a way to forgive yourself and be better. Take comfort in the fact that no pain lasts forever, time will heal you both.
I have done this too. If you want to talk you may message me.
