Marriage and depression
I found out that my husband has been cheating on me all through relationship. i’m not proud of how the way I went about it, because I snooped through his phone. And I hated myself for doing this, I wish I never did it and now he is mad at me and he left the house that he doesn’t trust me anymore which I understand, I feel helpless sometimes I feel like I don’t have anyone to talk to
Or turn to.
The only person I trusted is betraying me and I betrayed him by snooping through his phone twice and told him. We’ve been together for over 5 years and recently married like 5 months ago. And to my dismay, I’ve been lied to all along. I have no self-esteem left, I’m so insecure in my relationship, I lost whatsoever confidence I had in myself.
I’m so depressed about everything and I cry so much it’s taking a toll on my physical health too. I just hate the person I’ve become. What can I do? Where did I go wrong that I failed him so much. I don’t know what to do. I really do need help, I’m having all these bad thoughts running in my head. I live in a town with no friends. I literally have no one to help me here. I’m all alone in my head.
@intelligentPapaya505
Hello. I am sorry to hear about all this pain you must be going through.
You're right. Maybe you shouldn't have checked his phone. But first of all, he shouldn't have cheated on you. I believe it is better to know the truth, anyhow...
Easy now... Slowly... Please, be a caring person to yourself now. You truly need that. There will be time to put all things together. But now... please, just be good to yourself.
It is not your fault it happened. Accidents just happen... Even to good people.
I keep my fingers crossed for you 💜
Thank you so much for your kind words. I’ve literally lost 5 lbs in the last week stressing about what a failure I have been with my social duty. Thank you and I’ll try to put in practice what you advise. I’m sorry that I stooped so low that I snooped. I was over my head anxiously worried what I could do.
@intelligentPapaya505
I know it hurts and most people began to question themselves....
Do NOT let him turn the trust issue on you ... He chose to cheat ... he chose to hide things.
I really wish people would see the affair is not a reflection on you but on him. why did he chose to marry if he is still dating? Now is a good time to rebuild your strength / focus and depending on yourself. self esteem and self reliance are like Armour in this .... never forget you are worth more then someone who chose to stray...and then give you grief about looking thru a phone ... that shows serious messed up priorities.
You’re right but I still feel so guilty for breaking his trust that I can’t think properly. Also he left me saying he’ll be gone a while and I shouldn’t bother when he returns. I don’t even have friends to talk to. My family will be devastated to hear things like this and I’m above ashamed and feel like a major failure. I’m literally all alone in my thoughts. I’m tired.