Need some more advice

So I just recently got out of a 2 year relationship and it's been so hard on me. I had done some things to this guy that I can't forgive myself for and I've expressed that to him many times. The reason he broke up with me is because he can't understand his feelings and has trouble identifying them. I struggled with that too I just kept it to myself instead of communicating with him which Is definitely where I went wrong and how I hurt him. It's a long story. The important thing is I recognize I was in the wrong. He told me we could be friends until he had figured his emotions out and I was ok with that because I still want him in my life. We had been talking a couple times a day for the past week even playing some video games together. Then at the end of that week when I had thought things were going to be ok (silly me right?) He told me not to text him for a while because he still needed to focus on himself. I guess I took that as not to text him for the rest of that day so I started texting him again the next day. During that day and the following day I started to notice him being more cold and aggressive towards me nothing physical ofc just passive aggressive words but I had finally had enough of being a doormat and told him the other day that he didn't have the right to treat me like I was less than a person. He then snapped back at me and said he had told me he didn't want to talk to me and that I had been pissing him off because I didn't listen. I didn't know that he meant not to talk to him for a few days or weeks because that was never stated. Idk if I made him sound like a bad guy in this but he's not. He's amazing he's just hurting. I really hope I didn't ruin the friendship we had. But I need some advice on what the next step is for me. I haven't been alone in 2 years and I'm not saying I'm completely alone I definitely have people to talk to I just haven't reached out to them in so long because of this relationship. I don't want to continue to bother my ex because I know he needs his time to find himself and reconnect with friends of his own. But I miss him so much and I can't help but wonder how he's doing or if he misses me. Someone please tell me what to do. I'm so lost.