Sitting at a bar.
I havent drank in 3 years. Im at a bar right now. Rio Negra in hand...cant figure out what im supposed to do. I lost the love of my life...i didnt want to, but here i am. Alone...at a bar...as Janice Joplin plays...DIVORCE... what more can i say? Losing it all...all except the pain, the regrets, the should haves and shouldnt haves...the constants that remain immortal... i sit here alone, at a bar....
@Ryan575
Wow, is a drink going to help or hurt... sounds like you have had much unfold in a very short time...
@toughTiger6481 I am sorry u r going through a rough phase. This to shall pass 🫂
Honestly, i dont know. I flipped out earlier. I told her i cant deal with this. I told her that this is torture to me and that watching her not giving a **** is killing me. Its changing me...i cant stop thinking about it...all avenues we have entertained arent the answer in my mind. I already lost her...there is nothing left there...im just having to carry this burden on my own and shes ok....im glad shes ok...but im not...i have no one to talk to except you guys (mainly you) about this on here....im in self destruct mode...is it right? I dont even know anymore...but i told her....IM DONE ITS OVER...maybe im being petty or something but i cant do this. This is not life.
@Ryan575
Do not punish yourself over something she did to you.
Has she shown no upset no trying to discuss anything with you? Maybe she thinks you are mad but will not do it. She knows this is not what you want.
I know you are done and so frustrated by the situation, hopefully you can get a clear head to plan you steps forward you have a lot of decisions to make. Sometimes divorce attorneys have free consultations to at least help you see even the small things is dissolving a marriage. if nothing else you can get an idea of what's next.
Thank you tiger. Thank you for beeing here in essence for me...all this time im going through this and i have been so tied up in my own whirlwind that i have not acknowledged that you are facing similar circumstances as me only different. Please let me talk to you about your situation. I have been so selfish...you are there and i am with you friend.