Therapeutic?
Today is my birthday, this time last year I was going into the hardest semester of my physical therapy program. And a breakup with my ex gf. Now I am fully licensed, and start my full time position on Monday.
She broke up with me on new years eve, and we spoke in person Jan 8th for 6 hours in my new first car I recently got. I am planning to go back to that place and reflect on the progress I've made in my own career life and finishing school and I guess "facing" what happened there one year ago.
Her parents said I would live off her because I didn't take her out to dates or pay for her gifts. I was a broke college student, and since her dad was a doctor, I figured he would understand how stressed school can make you. He didn't. (His father just paid for his medical school). I put myself through school all by myself. No help from my parents. I'll be making 75-90k per year as a salary position and some extra stuff on the side. I still love my ex. I still resent her parents. She's in a new relationship with someone. She got with him 4 months after we broke up. She told me "I didn't replace you. You don't know the full story." We are blocked everywhere. The guy is so fat, works at a bank, and has a history degree he doesn't use. He is 3 years older then my ex. I'm 2 years old then my ex. I'm just so mad she replaced me so quickly, let alone with such a downgrade. She is also overweight. I take care of myself with the gym. Idk if she maybe just feels more comfortable around him since he's also overweight. I honestly don't know. We were together for 2 years. During COVID. I miss her. But I'm mad at her. I hate her parents for getting in the way. I'm finally in a position to be in a relationship, the one I had, the one I wanted with her, but I couldn't even have it then, because of school getting in the way. I wanna pay her back for the dates she paid for. I had promised I'd pay her back when I wasn't a broke college student. I hate my birthday. She's the only one I liked to hear "happy birthday" from. Do I pay her back? She's in physical therapy school now, so I'm assuming she finally understands how stressed I was and why I couldn't "make her a priority" as she would put it.
For those that recognize this story, sorry for posting again, it's a year and despite the progress I know I've made personally, I still feel this need to prove myself. A need she said she had her whole life due to her parents, and after 2 years with her...it's like that need bled onto me. And it's still bleeding when I tought that by this point, I'd be truly over her, and I'm not.
I still go on dates and stuff, but it's honestly just distractions. Idk how to forget her, let alone her parents and all the stuff they'd say about me that my ex would even get upset about
@toughPapaya1551
When there is a experience like this certain days and a B=day is something that can remind you of past times with her etc. i know you want to stay true to your word and pay her back for past date expenses and stuff but at a point ....you may need to let go. she has moved on and even if he is a downgrade or you do not see why.
i have a close friend who went through something similar while in school. he was not treated well by past managers he now makes x times more and frankly could be their boss, if he wanted, but the thing is those he held an "i'll show you" feeling about ............. have moved on........ two people retired, others had things happen in their life like being fired/ changed companies and there is no place to walk into and say "see i told you so...." He was letting them live rent free in his head for i'll show you thoughts and He had to see people change even if it has only been a year. No one was waiting for the show them moment but him.
if she wanted to stand up to her parents and say "this PT school is so hard i see why took so much out of tough papaya" she would . You obviously would like to get her back but honestly sounds one -sided.
