With a toxic partner but afraid to leave
I just want to get it off my chest. I am with someone who has serious issues with how he treats me. And yet I'm terrified of leaving. We both love each other and have been together several years. I'm not ready to just start over alone. I don't want to. But I don't want to stay either because I know it won't ever change. I have my issues too which makes it even more complicated. Most listeners just guide me to resources to leave, which I know they mean well but it doesn't help me feel better. It makes me feel anxious. I feel ashamed to tell people even on here because when they refer me to a shelter or something, I feel like they don't want to talk to me because I'm making them feel uncomfortable. And the. worrying about that makes me anxious.
I hope you found support in this issue
Nothing to feel ashamed about. There's all sorts of lives lived.
Wow exactly what I'm going through at the moment. It's so hard. I have issues which makes it worse. But He treats me poorly. He never laughs or smiles really even. He blames it all on me. But he's choosing to leave this weekend. We are married. And heartbreak is the hardest trauma on me for some reason. I've been in bed. It's hard to wake up. Function. Nothing makes me feel better right now. I know I will eventually. But being in this house where we live alone is horrendous. I feel you. I understand you completely. It's complicated. It's toxic to stay but hard to go. It's fear of the unknown, being alone. I don't completely love myself. That's my real issue. I been broke down in life. I don't know if anything makes this easy.