Help :/
I've been with my boyfriend for 7 years and I'm at a point now where I feel constantly agitated and annoyed by things he does and says. And then I feel guilty that I feel so annoyed like I'm just a mean person. Sometimes it feels like he does things to mess with me and annoy me as a "joke" but it's not funny and it messes with my head. I guess this just bothers me so much because it seems like he's aware that certain behaviors get to me and then does them anyway. I love him a lot but find myself unhappy everyday and feeling like I'm not being true to myself. But I have dedicated 7 years to this relationship and it's not fair to him to end it after leading him on for so long. But it feels so awful to be constantly annoyed and lately I've been snapping and having anger attacks. I broke a window and am feeling awful about it but it just feels like I am backed up in a corner and I can't communicate properly. I'm so depressed. And I just want to be in a relationship that feels good for me. I don't feel smothered and anxious and annoyed all the time.
My situation is obviously different from yours but I do think I understand a bit of how you feel.. If you think this relationship is something you want or something worth putting more work into than i think its important for you to try and find more love in what you guys have. When things get "old" it can be super irritating or uninspiring. Maybe if you guys havent been on a date in awhile, you could try that! Or doing activities together like cooking a meal or playing games, so on. My fiance tickles me all the time and sometimes he chooses horrible times and so for awhile i was just super annoyed and mad whenever he would but i also tried to remind myself that he does it because he loves to see me smile and laugh and he thinks its cute when i throw a fit. Its one of his ways of loving on me because he knows that no matter what, ill laugh. (Even if im super mad about it- which makes it even more annoying sometimes.) Your boyfriend may mess with you because he wants to get some sort of reaction from you. I do think its important to mention that youve felt distant and are having a hard time communicating how you feel. I hope whatever you do works out💕
Thanks so much! Honestly that's what I needed to hear 💗
Im so glad i could help💕
