I feel like a freak
I've never told anyone this.
I feel like a freak because of my strange fetishes. I feel like no one in my life actually knows who I am, and if they did they would be ashamed of me.
Okay, here it is.
I like to masturbate while I'm on the phone with women I don't know. To be clear, I'm not talking about phonesex. I just enjoy doing it while the person on the other end of the line has no idea what I'm doing. It could be anyone, so long as it's someone I don't know personally. Our conversations are normal, no one has ever known.
Wow. Typing that out makes me feel like a complete freak.
But the truth is, I'm not actually ashamed of the thing itself. It's more like I'm just ashamed of getting caught.
I don't know how to explain it. Or why I'm even posting here.
I just wanted to say it 'out loud' I guess.
I just wanted someone to hopefully tell me I'm not a freak.
You're not a freak, love. It gets you off. There's no reason to be ashamed of it. It doesn't hurt anyone, so why be ashamed at all? You are definitely not a freak.
Not a freak at all, I had a friend who does the exact same thing! :) He did it with me all the time. Nothing to be worried over. :)
You said what you wanted to say that was on your mind bothering you. I think everyone has secrets that they are afraid the world would judge. So you are a brave person than most of us.If you don't like your habit, see if you can change yourself . It might take time & effort, but see if you can change yourself. Have a great day brave n82.
Thank you for the replies.
DiplomaticTurtle, it's not so much that I don't like my habit (I'm not sure I would call it a 'habit,' but then again no one likes to think they have a habit). I just don't like the idea of anyone close to me knowing about it. But I don't feel bad about the thing itself as much as I feel that I will be judged for it. Maybe that's the same thing, I don't know.
Sephie and FinestHour, thank you. I expected to either get zero replies to this post or get people telling me I was a complete creep. Your replies mean a lot to me. Thank you.
Anytime, Sweetie. We all have our "thing". No worries. Enjoy those convos, babe!
I'd be interested to talk to you a bit about your experience with your friend. If you wouldn't find it an imposition, you can feel free to.
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Oh goodness. I wouldn't want any of my family members to know any of my crazy fetishes, either. Regardless, it's private. We all have our "things". You're not a freak. You're human.
Thank you for the reminder, Tanya. I appreciate it.
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I just want to say that a sexual fetish like that ONLY makes you a "freak" in a *good* way ;) I have my own... I'm a straight, single woman and I get off looking at pregnant/abdominally ample ladies. Sex is odd like that. Don't let it make you feel horrible. As long as you're not abusing anyone or making them feel violated, then, in my opinion, you've got nothing to worry about.
I would just like to thank everyone that took the time to respond to this thread, especially Sephie who has given me much advice and encouragement. �I greatly appreciate it and I feel bit better now about this just knowing I'm not the only one.
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Sweetie, I'm glad you are finding some happiness! I'm always happy to help. :)
I am always wanting sex and I have a ridiculous sex drive, I love giving oral to a woman and knowing that she's feeling such pleasure from me, but I never meet women who are the same as me, I mean sex drive wise. It makes me feel like a perverted weirdo. I just don't think there are women who would want me.
Omg Same!!! In all honesty I have fetishes about fucking my brother..
Really, do you fantasise about your brother a lot then
Woow this post have a lot of heavy stuff but no one is freak. U r all just normal. We all have crazy ideas. We r just humans. And it is just fine. As long as it is not hurting any1
Hey there, it's definitely okay to have different fetishes. You should never have to feel bad jusy because your interests are different! A friend introduced me to a fetish site awhile ago that has people who openely talk about these sort of things. It's a very accepting and open environment which i would recommend if you'd like to know you're not alone. It's called fetlife.com. hope this helps :)
