I'm so frustrated and lonely it hurts and I don't know what to do , much less tonight

long story short. I'm lonely beyond belief and have left my house more than a handful of time in the last year because of health stuff. I can only talk to people online. I'm a sad and pathetic person, but its all I have.Its the only way i can meet women, i haven't talked to a woman my age in probably half a year.

Ive been on talking to women online, really taking whatever is offered. I want friends, but I also want sexual stuff and tonight I found that. I found a girl that was really fun to talk to , and open to that, and then out of nowhere she blocked me and it hurts like hell. I mean, we only talked for an hour or 2, but she was so down to earth, and a cool person, and we didn't talk about dirty much at all. I enjoyed our conversation, maybe i pushed to hard, but i feel sick to my stomach that she felt like she had to block me. I think that I maybe pushed to hard, though I didn't feel like I pushed at all I just was talking and she gave me no indication whatsoever that was wrong.

I'm so lonely I want to cry, not even a joke. I just want to hear a womans voice, I want to feel connected to a woman SOMEHOW however possible. yes I want to be sexual, I don't know how, i don't care how, I just don't want to feel alone tonight, another night, alone beyond beleif.