Potential Nymph
Hi! I'm 23, and living in a third world country where premarital coitus is considered taboo. I've been very aware of my sexuality since the 6th grade. I've started touching myself almost everyday since then. There are days when I would just lay in bed watching porn and imagine myself being raped/gangbanged. Forced/nonconsual sex are basically my fantasies and in real life, I despise rape and sexual assault so much, I sometimes feel like a hypocrite. I started having sex since I was 17, and I haven't stopped since. I only had 3 sexual partners though, but we do it frequently. Feels like my life revolves around sex. Is that normal? I think about it even in unappropriate occasions.
@limeTalker4433 Yes, its normal. About the rape part.... you might want to check out BDSM, sometimes they tied you with ropes for the sex, I bet there are also fake kidnappings and fake rapes that could help you with that.
On a personal expiriences, I dont have much sex.. but I masturbate a lot, and I personally canalize all my problems with thinking about sex or masturbating... maybe you canalize all your thoughts about that... you try to fix your problems by having sex...
@limeTalker4433
i've searched the definition of "nymph" and came across "a beautiful or graceful young woman" or "a maiden." if you're appying that you're a nymph, that's great. but being a nymph has nothing to do with sex or sexuality, from these definitions i've found. i'm confused?
@redCanine3669 pretty sure she means Nymphomaniac.
@Julietlovesu415
well "nymphomaniac" does relate to sex more, so it'd make more sense.
coincidentally, "nymph" means "a mythological spirit of nature imagined as a beautiful maiden inhabiting rivers, woods, or other locations." i can see where the "nymph" in "nymphomaniac" comes from, even through my previous experience with females and my current virginity.
When something is more out of reach we desire it more, when we're low on money, that expensive choclate suddenly looks way more tempting cause you can't have it.
Maybe thats with you and sex. Tough I find it silly this whole thing of not having sex before marriage.
And the rape gangbang fantasy is common, the thing with the fantasy is, as funny as it sounds, is concencual rape, someone taking out their lust on someone shamelessly but the one taking it obviously likes it or that the person in question like the "surprise sex" act. Mostly the "victim" aren't drugged, kidnapped or put in another situation of powerless hostage in the fantasy/porn, they are in a weaker spot surely but they do enjoy it and aren't afraid or cause trauma as the real deal does, the real thing is more about the damage it cause rather then the sex.
