Break up or not?
You see, we've been a lot of through this time, his and my depression, arguments. when i frist found him he was about to kill himself but apparently i rescued him. then i found out he dropped school and yet he planned the future with me. sometimes he has those periods he's stupid, like he says he's not gonna work for anybody, he's gonna be the chef (without any experience, yeaaah). i have bad situation at home and he wanted to kill my father what i didnt want him to do. then he said he did this to make me feel better. there's also the thing with his absence- he had those periods when he was sleeping for very long time, 3 days or something
so i really wanted to break up with him but i also loved him very much. he was the only person that understood me, we could talk all day without being bored. and he was my only friend
so i tried break uping with him, but he threatened to kill himelf, after a while i gave up.
and it was fine after this, we really were happy. but then i made him go to school (just for weekends) he moved back to country and to the family that wants him to do all the work at home. and he's looking for job. should be better, right? we still have arguments and i dont love him the way i did before. it's more like im used to him. i dunno if i feel the love. and i have no idea wether he is "the one" ill always be happy with or not. i dunno what to do and im too weak to break up with him
Also I want to study in London and he's in Poland, he wants to move to london but i think he should finish his education first. he'd do anything for me but i dont want to take care of him always.
im also afraid he won't have any life after me.
So he's homicidal and using a threat of suicide to make you stay? Those are red flags...and I don't know how to handle such a fragile situation but...he needs professional help...because from what I read it sounds like more than just a relationship issue...like you're his security blanket rather than a partner, and he probably needs a healthier way to deal with whatever he's going through.
@Phthalo I second that notion.
I also want to add however to put yourself first, it must seem hard to do at the moment, especially when he throws threats like that. But please do remember that you are all you have got and you can not give yourself up for someone elses life.
@INeedAHug556
I agree with Phthalo; this seems like a much bigger and deeper thing than just your relationship. It sounds like you've been caught in his web of issues and he needs more (and professional) help than can be expected of you. Being trapped in a loveless relationship for fear of what might happen to him is a terrible thing, and it will suck you dry and your whole world will revolve around him in a bad way.
Is there anyone you can talk to about this in real life (not online)? A counselor or anyone like that?
@INeedAHug556
I think you should do what you think it's the best. If this relationship brings you more negativity than hapiness maybe it's time to move on. I know it's not easy but it's worth it. *hug*
Best regards
Sunalchemy
