I am getting sick of talking about you behind your back

Dear Z:

As you know we are approaching the 5 year mark in which you treated me like a piece of trash and threw me away even though you were supposed to love me like a sister. However, I have to realize that you were a frienemy all along. I want to let you know that you did and said some horrible things to me that I don't think I can really ever forget because that's what psychological abuse is designed to do. However, it goes to show that were always the coward in that you hid behind your spouse and all your family members. As my close friend who really does love me like a real mom, you are the definition of a low-quality friend and I don't think you are someone who I would want in my circle. Especially if you hated me from day 1 and all you could do was use me to get what you want and bring me down too. Either way, I have talked about you a lot since the rejection and the last meeting, became angry thinking about you along with thinking about pooping on your grave once you died on a greyhound trip to Savannah. Though I will admit that what you did was not nice Z, I talking about you all the time is finally getting old and I am getting sick of talking about you all the time. Either way, I am going to sort this out with a counselor now without talking about you as much. Rather, I will ask about next steps because I will admit, what you said and did to me still does haunt you and I find myself feeling angry. However, I know the less I talk about you, that anger will go away eventually.

Love Shy