If you have the time to read please do. Am I ever going to get past this love I thought I had and wanted so bad.

I had a bf whom I broke up with to be with someone else, after trying everything with him. Then the new guy was cheating on me with his ex who he never truly broke up with. I left him and went back to the first guy. Then eventually me and the first guy broke up. I started talking to a guy friend for some time and we grew closer, but the guy I had originally left my bf for, who cheated with his ex, came back and I still loved him so I took him back. We stayed together from December to January everything was good until I found out he was liking pics on social media of other women and I started to be more in his space. From there I went back to college and things became shakey. He was suppose to visit for valentine