I need help

@viki1988

Relationships are hard to navigate, especially when you young and have no frame of reference to put things in perspective.

as much as the thought about your life imploding is compelling to you at the moment, You need to resist it and realize it's all fake news. It's a tunnel vision situation and it makes you blind to the rest of your life and the work around you. It's unhealthy obsession that will pass. Write down the all your life's dreams. Things you want to accomplish. People you want to meet. Reconnect with people important to you whom you neglected lately. Enjoy little things around you. Stop to smell the roses. Good luck and make sure to spread the love to the world around you.

@viki1988

what kind of friends or family just believes an accusation ....... or lets her bad mouth their "friend"

especially from a GF who moved on quickly into a "paid " situation..... sounds kind of sleazy move..........

if these people just believe and have zero curiosity about truth ....... they are not worth your time.

i would remind them they are taking the word of someone who has severe bias and deflection from her turning PRO i guess.....

they did not hear both sides because always the truth is somewhere in the middle ....sometimes 80/20 some times 50/50 or any number of combinations but always more then one side of a story.

I am so sorry, I know what it's like to feel lost. I have had a really tough month or weeks. Some days are worse than others. You will be ok, it just takes some time. I hope you are able to and know you will eventually find some peace.

My suggestion, start working on a plan on what you want to do or what your needs are. Even if that means reaching out and telling her how you feel and how hurt you are, talking to other people, even strangers.

Sorry, I know how hard it is to be alone. I hope you can find the comfort you need soon