Stay broken up or try again?

My ex and I are each other first relationship, we meet in freshman year of college and we were friends for almost a year and then started dating, we dated for 3 years. He(23) is half white/Christian and half Pakistani Muslim and I'm (23) catholic Mexican. I broke up with him last summer, I realized so much that I became numb... Depressed. My ex did lied to me the first year we were together to get me jealous (altho he lied for a week, he didn't cheat just acted like he gave this other girl more attention. When I was ready to break up then he then swore to be honest and win my trust. It took him a year to win it and I saw him change. He was no longer insecured or as insecured as before. When he confess to me he purposely wanted me jealous it was because he thought jealousy meant you love someone, and I am not a jealous girl. He confessed in his own when I told him Its now up to me to get over it, he didn't wanted me to continue feeding with this lie so he told me the truth. He was afraid I would leave him for sure... I don't excuses his behavior but I did see him change from that mistake. He became less insecured and more confident in himself. The reason he thought jealousy was good it was because his parents always fight about it and normalized jealousy saying "we fight but jealousy is good for a marriage".) Anyways, the other thing was realizing his dad is a narcissistist, then my parents started having issues then wnated divorce. My mom confess to me something about my dad that made me look at him differently and myself differently. Turns out my dad is also a narcissist. I broke up because I felt numb and depressed to always being the one that had to endure to keep others happy (mostly my dad and my ex dad). My ex during this tried to support me through my numb days but I could tell it was hurting him too. Idk what else to do, so I broke up with him. A year later, my ex and I are in good terms we talk every so often, (altho not a lot maybe months in between). I was there when he got a milestone of getting his own place and he wants to be there in mine when I graduate. We both still have feelings for each other. I started therapy and I'm in the process of not being a people pleaser and trusting my own decisions, my own feelings, my own opinions (because I grew up getting used to that I couldn't trust my mind because of my dad). He is also doing things for himself and no longer to please his dad... We are growing and learning to do things for our own mental health than for our narcissistic fathers. Thing is, I still love him. I have a feeling that we just meant to be, all this time he wanted me to be back with him and I kept telling him no. He respected me always despite it hurting him that I wasn't ready for a relationship (then), he respected that I needed time to heal and wanted therapy to heal. He has always been suppotive and my rock, even now that we been broken up. I am not sure about anything in my life rn, the only thing I am sure about it's my feelings for him and that I do want to try again with him. He grew and I did too, we now see through our dad's narcissistist bs and we are trying to be better people for our own good. My sister and mom doesn't think it's a good idea, not because my ex is a bad person and they don't like him, they do. But because they think I should still date around and not just be with my ex. They fear I will only have him and he will be my forever and I just limited myself with just knowing him. Thing is, I have guys who do come up to me and I don't feel a connection... With my ex I felt this vibe and connection even before I officially meet him and started talking to him, he felt safe, he felt like home. Talking to him for the very first time it felt like I knew him for ages... Crazy thing was that he felt the exact same way about me when he first lay eyes on me. It's that connection and that vibe that makes me thing that we are meant to be. I love the core of who he is, I love how I feel when I'm around him, I love that despite his jealousy and insecurities he was never controlling, he did made a mistake but he regrets it and grew from it and doesn't make an excuse for his actions, I love how we help each other be better. I helped him find direction in life when he was lost and he helped me be my conscious and my emotional rock when I feel like I'm drowning or about to give up. He is the one that tells me to have a healthy boundaries with my dad and not just cut him off like I want to. Because he wants me to still have a dad and that family but in a healthy boundaries way before I immediately jump into cutting him off... He balances me out just as much as I balance him out, being with him it's so easy to be ourselves and understand each other without much issue. But idk what to do, I know I love him and I want to try things again. But my family thinks it's a bad idea, so do I listen to them or myself? Idk