Forgiveness
Can’t rember how times, I’ve wished ill on them. It would be better, if they were dead. But no christ, tells you to love your enemies. Pray for those who persecute you. Forgive those who, curse you. What if those same people, laugh in your face while doing it and slowly try to destroy your life. And no, stop forcing me to be your little latchkey. I wished you dead hundreds of times and you continue to laugh in my face. I’ve tried to forgive them but that is up to him not me. For I fear, I don’t have it in me. I can’t anymore. Once and if he heals me, I pray he allows me to leave and flea them and their kin. While, I am at his mercy please dont forsake me here, it’s eating at my soul. It’s not normal to cry each day. I know you wept for truly grave reasons but I am not strong like you. Please just listen to me and try to forgive me even if I can’t forgive them.
@secretFriend2402
I'm sorry you are struggling.
Faith isn't easy.
It's hard to always have all the answers.
We are human and we hurt and it's hard to trust blindly.
Forgiveness is such a personal thing, it's not as easy to do as people suggest.
It's highly dependent on the wrong doing.
But what I would say about forgiveness, it doesn't mean that the wrong is now suddenly corrected or you have to like that person or even be in their company, it's a decision you make to ensure your own peace of mind and to carry on being the type of person you wish to be, not swallowed up by anger or hatred.
God asks us to forgive , and to love, He knows it's hard, often impossible, all He asks is we hand it over to Him.
In the end everyone will face Him and their example in this life will be loud clear 💖
@secretFriend2402 I hear you and I know that you are having a difficult time,
Forgiveness does not mean we condone someone's harmful actions. Forgiveness is more like letting go of grudges. Why? Because grudges keep us trapped in the painful situation and feeling even more miserable. To forgive I do not even have to tell the person I forgive you.
I can simply say to myself: because I know that you want to be happy just like I do even if you do things that make others suffer. You are trapped in a negative spiral that keeps you stuck. I do not condone your action, I recognize our shared humanity. That is the hope I have that someday we may stop harming and reacting to harm and be at peace.
It can be a slow process if we are in a harmful situation but we can avoid the self inflicted pain of hating someone. That only makes our pain worse.
@secretFriend2402 Amen💖
You know sometimes I think that 'not forgiving' some people/things means your the stronger person. By not forgiving them it means you know better and you won't stoop down to their level, it means you know right from wrong and that's a good thing💖 you are stronger and wiser💖 and I believe God hears you and loves you deeply no matter what💖
