I don't want to wallow in emptiness forever.
Damn. I can't even start a thread without sounding like the typical depressed and edgy teenager. I am horrible at everything I do. I am incompetent in my life. I don't even know what I'm experiencing. Depression? Can't be. I get happy then sad. Then again, I don't know much about depression. Can't call myself depressed when I'm not diagnosed.
But I feel so perpetually sad and numb. I stopped drawing and writing. You can tell I should have stopped writing a long time ago based on how terrible this post's english is.
I want to pour everything out. I can't go to therapy. I can't call mental health hotlines. What's the point of attempting when I just back down like a coward?
I don't know anything. Because I am incompetent. So incompetent, you'd wonder how I still live to this day.
I thought I was good in something.
@Enz00 I also feel this way, I am also not diagnosed with anything, and I can't call it depression because I also have some mood swings that make me think I am just being unreasonable and a clown. But I've learnt that all of this is so real, the mood swings, part of it, is my body wanting to improve but my mind just can't seem to understand how to. I also love to write, but for the past months I felt like I can't anymore, I have lost every single spark of motivation, and writing just doesn't feel like I'm crafting what I want to. Recently, I have also felt like I'm reducing myself, as If I was losing myself, because of how close I've always been.
This is so painful. It's really sad, but I want you to know you're not alone, a lot of people feel like you do including me and being able to say this out loud says pretty much how brave you are . So, don't give up, pour everything out , talking about it really helps don't keep it inside alone. We're here to support each other. You can always reach out if you want to talk.
@Enz00
Hey… I hear the kind of heaviness you’re sitting with. Feeling lost, numb, or unsure about what any of it means can make everything feel ten times harder.
Nothing in what you wrote sounds incompetent; it sounds like someone who’s overwhelmed and exhausted from carrying so much alone. I'm here if you ever want to talk.
and honestly, I think your english is awesome. 💗
I think you are being to harsh on yourself try not to judge yourself so harshly and it's okay your feelings are valid i can totally understand your mood swings...your English is better than many people and you knowing english or not doesn't define your worth you felt that you should stop writing but you still that's not something a coward will do! I'm glad you spoke up your feelings I'm proud of you for that
If you can't go to therapy and call mental health hotlines try to write your feelings in a book basically journal or just talk to yourself or maybe talking a stranger in this app would also help
You are not alone love! Keep going ♡
I think you are being to harsh on yourself try not to judge yourself so harshly and it's okay your feelings are valid i can totally understand your mood swings...your English is better than many people and you knowing english or not doesn't define your worth you felt that you should stop writing but you still that's not something a coward will do! I'm glad you spoke up your feelings I'm proud of you for that
If you can't go to therapy and call mental health hotlines try to write your feelings in a book basically journal or just talk to yourself or maybe talking a stranger in this app would also help
You are not alone love! Keep going ♡
I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm trying to be mean because I'm not. 1: This post's English isn't terrible. 2: Quit it with the self judgement none of it is true. 3: You said you thought you were good at something, what is it that you wanna be good at? 4: If you're a coward then how could you have possibly reached out to others like this? I used to talk about myself like you are to yourself now,, and then I got help and it wasn't easy but eventually I stopped hating myself.