Advice please.
I aways been here thinking about what life is why I’m allowed to laugh when I know outers are suffering, and enjoy myself when outers might be being forced to do things against their will, and I don’t know how to feel anymore so I thought about ending it, because I’m in a endless loop of thought wounding why should I get live a privileged life of a white girl in the U.S in a 2 story house (I’m a kid) with parents who love me and older siblings who help me, so I tried self-harm and told my friends it was because I whated to get used to pain, if I ever got shot or something a little more slow it would still hurt but maybe slightly less then the normal person. And I don’t do it as much but I still thought about worse, what should I do?
@determinedCucumber2564
Sending love, hugs, and prayers!
Firstly I don't wanna push anything on you. I have also struggled with thoughts about being in a better position then others and how I shouldn't feel so bad or down or emotionless, I only recently started self harm so I won't try to tell you what to do.
Jesus helped me immensely with my feelings of privilege and the 'why do I have love, home, family, food, etc.' I don't know if you believe or don't and if you have or haven't read the Gospels. But reading and seeing how Jesus treated the rich and poor, Jew and Greek, free and slave, the same with struggles and responsibilities, he treated them all with love, kindness and firmness. I believe we need to treat ourselves and others that way too, with the firmness to not let ourselves do wrong, the kindness too our body's and minds, and the love to forgive our mistakes.
I don't know if that helped you any but I am still send you love prayers and hugs!
I understand your position. I want to start of by saying that you are an amazing human being for being this empathetic with the world around you. It’s rare for people who live a privileged life to feel anguish as much as you do about people who find themselves in difficult situations.
The ability to feel things as deeply as you do is what’s causing you to spiral, and I understand that it might seem like a bad thing and I’m sure that it feels horrible, but I believe that your ability to feel is beautiful. .
Please take good care of yourself. You are precisely what the world needs more of, so we need you to be okay. You are going to change so many people’s lives throughout your lifetime.
I’m rooting for you! You’re going to do so much good to this world. You can do this. You deserve to get better. You deserve to love yourself as much as you love the world around you.
If you need to talk anytime, I’ll be here. Good luck!
