First time you ever experimented with self-harm?

In fourth grade cause I was abused

first time i tried self-harm... it was just paper-cut-like scratches using a pocket knife on my upper arm. it was during my time in an out-of-state school, in a challenging and stressful program, while having to deal with loneliness and a long-term long distance relationship that was becoming toxic. i feel stupid and guilty for doing it, but i felt like it was the only control i had left of my sanity. i was ashamed of it. the cuts were deep enough that there are still light scaring, i can still see them.

I was 14, trying to force a miscarriage, when that didn't work I started cutting

My first time was when I was in high school when I was 15yrs old (that was 25 years ago) My parents were fighting all the time. I was getting verbally/emotionally abused by my mom who wasn't all that emotionally stable herself. i didn't think that i had anyone to go to - to talk to about how I was feeling. i wasn't even sure how i was feeling. i was just in a lot of pain and sadness. I felt all this emotion like a big weight -- it was like this big heavy brick over me. i turned to self harm to kind of relieve the emotional pressure --- to make all that emotional pain tangible into something that i could fix cause i couldn't fix how i felt. Currently I have been "clean" for 2 years but self harm and depression is still something that I struggle with and I continue to maintain. some days are better than others. one day at a time.

I think I just started cutting myself with scissors one day at school just because I was bored.

When I couldn't feel anything anymore.

I was abused for years, and was convinced that I wasn't enough and that i was unlovable. I remember feeling so much self-hatred that I jabed my pencil into my arm over and over. The pencil wasnt enough so I stoll a razor from my dad's tools. After doing it just one time, i couldnt stop my self and every time I self harmed, I would have to dig in a little deeper. Now, two years latter, i have gone a while without a relapse. My body is covered in scars that are horrible to look at. I feel ashamed for what I did, but I don't know what else I could have done to get throughs those years

When i was 14. Because of my powerful feeling of emptiness.Because of my depression and anxiety.Because of my ADHD.Because of feeling everything and at the same time feeling nothing.

A few days ago, becaue of my BDD, severe depression, anxiety, my family, school, friends, but most of all I feel so worthless and that I have no purpose in this world.

I found an old diary from when I was 6 or 7 and in it it said 'ways to hurts yourself' and it had stuff like 'punch other people so they punch u back' and j guess I just didn't know I could do it myself.

Like two years ago I woke up before everyone else and went to the kitchen and got a knife that is a bit sharper than a normal knife and cut a bit on my hand.

Last year, November I wanted to see what it was like and I had been having a tough time so I took a shaving razor and cut my wrists, but people noticed so I didn't do my wrists, only my thighs.

I used that razor for a long time, until two weeks ago when I stole that same knife from the kitchen and have now started to go deeper. Today I'm worrying of I've gone too deep, covered in cuts on my thighs, foot and arm.