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Hello everyone, I started college about 3 weeks ago , honestly I was super excited at first but after I became anxious, stressful, overthinking... ...and a lot . I'm scared about tests and exams , bc I have to get excellent marks and that's not easy there at all , so I will explain everything to you:

I'm studying at school of technology here in Morocco and we study there for two years after every student choose his own path .my path is to continue my studies at engineering, but have to get excellent marks and even the top students there don't get them , hhh I laughing from pain

So and after that I have to take one of the hardest test in there , I can complete my studies abroad but money is my only problem, my father's salary under 10$ a month so we are poor poor . And that's hurt me bc I know that they want to see me at a great place but they can't help

Two days ago i came home from my classes and when I got home I failed on the floor and cried like I lost someone, I couldn't stop 💔 my father was concerned about me and he took me with his motorcycle and we went to get me something to eat and on tge way he asked why am I like this , I told him how I'm feeling , he told me that I have to try my best and if the results weren't good , it's God will , we have to try and put own trust on God. He comforted me and I felt relieved at that moment, but after that I came back to stress, crying, overthinking, moreover my friend olso felt hopeless, she was hiding her feelings from everyone but yesterday she told me everything, she cried. She know how to hide her struggles and feelings inlike me if I'm struggling it will show on me . Anyway she spoke with me and after that I became worse. But yesterday I had classes until 4pm so I told my dad to pick me up from there and he came , I told him I need to go to tge Beach he didn't tell no , he took me to buy some snacks and then we went to there , we set , we listened to the sound of the waves and we ate our snacks it's was actually a beautiful calm moment. And on our way to home I prayed to God the whole way , I actually felt little better. Students from the second year told me that it's normal to feel like this bc it's your first time at college everything is new , so you'll feel like that , I hope that this is only temporary, I will try my best and pray to good every day . I will olso go out with my father anytime I didn't feel good . I will pray to god to give a chance to study abroad bc it was always my dream. I'll write to you if anything happened good or bad