It feels empty again
Another goes by without achieving anything i hate what i have became the me from middle school would probably be disappointed all her hard work led to this .Life feels tiring meaningless a life where one does nothing but eat or drink when nothing is achieved can't be called a life i feel like i m drowning like i can't breath like a candle that long lost its fire its desire and passion what is there left for me it feels like i can't recognise myself and the person i became this can't be me i hope it is not me i hope i m being possessed i keep on wondering ,for someone with no purpose and meaning ,why am i still alive why is it that innocent children with many dreams die today in the war and i m still alive i trust god's judgement but i can't help but think this way.
@wisteria28 I am sorry to hear you are feeling low. When I look at the news from all over the world, I get an uneasy feeling that things are not quite right. I try not to take it on as a burden for myself to carry. Some days I just try to avoid the news. It is a heavy load.
Have you considered getting professional help or have you tried many listeners at 7 Cups to find one that can listen to you without judgement?
I do not know how old you are but creating a life for yourself can take time. What kind of things do you like that you would do just for the joy of doing them? Do you like drawing or painting?
Thank you 🤍yes i did try a listener but i found out that writing a thread and getting other people's opinion is more helpful to me i m still in university and studying medicine and it's honestly exhausting to deal with my mental health and the constant pressure to keep up with others being surrounded by smart people doesn't help and family's expectation are tiring i am trying a manual hobby like crochet to deal with the negative feelings but it only end up making me feel more guilty for not studying or achieving anything
@wisteria28 medical school can be very demanding for sure. When is your summer break?
@wisteria28 I think feeling guilty about your survival when little kids die in war ---- is an offshoot of the survivors guilt maybe. Obviously it speaks about our shared humanity. I remember people in the war zones in my prayer and I feel some comfort knowing I might be doing something for them. They have their test of resilience. We, the ones who are watching, have a test to show compassion in whatever way we can.
War impacts mental health of not those living through it but also of those witnessing it and this trauma even passes on to the next generation genetically.... so youre not alone in feeling this pain....
Your life has meaning. Be patient in discovering it. ✨️💛
Thank you i wish they are safe and protected the war has gone for far too long