New Day, Same Broken Me

@TheNoSparkleStar I am so sorry that you feel a big hole in your life. I wish there were easy answers but I do not have any.

With me the process of letting go of traumas and griefs has been a long slow process of loosening my grip on those experiences that I kept dwelling on. It seems like the more I dwelled on them, the darker it seemed.

So people ask me what did I do? I tried to reinvent myself every day. Yesterday or last month I was the person that lost a partner, but today I am volunteering and listening to people who need someone to listen to.

I wrote in a journal, penned a poem, had a quiet time, played or listened to inspiring music, helped someone plant a tree, visited someone in a nursng home, painted a picture, and I had never painted before. I had to think outside the box that I had lived in for so long. I had to reinvent how I saw myself as a person.

What you choose may be totally different but you do have the power to choose what you do and what you focus on in your day, one moment at a time, one breath at a time. That may be the greatest power we have.

@TheNoSparkleStar

I can feel the despair in your words 💙. It's hard to keep going when you feel that nothing changes but please do not give up on yourself.

Often the feeling of being broken happens when we feel that we run out of options, are hopeless, drained and exhausted. It can feel that the hole is getting bigger and bigger. At this stage it is very hard to see that a new day offers new possibilities.

Something I always found helpful for myself is doing at least one enjoyable thing and one work task per day (sometimes I needed to push myself) So, at night when I looked back at the day I could always say to myself, despite all the obstacles there was something nice in this day and I also accomplished something. It gave me some sort of "winner feeling" because I did not let my challenges "freeze" me and it did help me to slowly crawl out of the hole I was in. Talking to someone, getting out of your place for a walk to see something different are other helpful ways to me to find the light again. Getting out of a "hole" is not always easy but please remember you're not alone - you can always connect to a listener for a 1:1 chat, even if it's just to vent.

Sending your caring beams 💙

Sorry to hear that you feel that way about yourself. I think that eventually you will grow to like yourself more even if it takes you a long time. I hope that you can realize what you’re worth in the future no matter how far away it is.

@TheNoSparkleStar awwww sweetie 😢 it's hard, I know. Someone once told me "but darling, there is no light at the end of the tunnel, you must realise YOU are the light" it's true, the person who can help you the most is you. You can do this, one step at a time. Do what ever you can right now, to keep moving forward, to find happiness in the little things. And we'll all be right here with you helping in any way we can. Gives you a giant tiny hug ❤ squeezes you tightly ❤❤ sends lots of love and healing beams your way. ❤❤