confusing grief stuff raaah
you know how when like, somene dies, but theres no proof so you dont really like.. i guess believe it? like, deep down, you know its true, but at the same time, you don't like actualy acknowledge that it is?
when i was like 4-10 i had this friend, and we were 10 he just kind of disappeared. all of the other kids that knew him told me that he was dead, but i didnt really take it seriously. like, i dont even know. i believed them, but at the same time i didnt?
i found his obituary a little but ago, and it feels like i just lost him, even though hes been gone for almost 7 years. i guess i always had this idea that he just moved away and everyone else were just being dramatic or whatever, but it was true. he IS really dead.
i feel like ive been hit by a train, but that doest even make sense because i have had so long to forget about him.
idek, this is just so weird dude. my brain is scattered and i feel lost ***?
@koryaga I am so sorry for your loss. It is something that ishard to believe when someone is gone. It just seems so unreal.
There is something called delayed or deferred grief where someone who is not able to handle the grief delays grieving till some time in the future when they are able to handle it. Maybe you are at that point now where you started to grieve over this.
I hope you continue to tell us what is happening as it becomes something you are accepting even though it is still such a shock.
@koryaga
I'm very sorry for your loss 💙. Although it's time ago it's fresh for you and you're hurt, there are wounds which need healing now. Your brain just acknowledged reality, it's not hidden or suppressed anymore. This is a time where you really need support and love, a lot from yourself too. So please try to take things easy, be extra gentle and kind with yourself. It helps many people to share their pain. We are here for you. Please click here if you like to connect with a listener. Sending you caring beams 💙