Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check In - Monday May 8th
It's Monday!
How's that feeling for you all? My friend has her birthday today - happy day for her. But for me I'm back at work after a week off - not so happy day for me. But it's the beginning of a new week - yay! But perhaps another week to struggle through - boo.
However you feel about Monday, remember you're amongst supportive friends here. So how is your day going? Has the week started with a bang or a whimper? What would you like to share? What will help you hang in there?
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@DeborahUK
Happy belated birthday!!! I hope you had a nice day!
@KLM3278
Thank you KLM, but I really didn't mean to turn this into a belated birthday thread for me! How's your day going?
@DeborahUK
I know but I wanted to tell you that! ❤️🎂 I'm okay. Work was stressful but I'm hanging in there 😃
@DeborahUK Oh happy belated birthday Deborah you kept that quiet LOL and if you want cake you can have some of mine next week LOL :) Hope your day is not too bad :)
@dancingRainbow45
Did someone mention cake? Another May birthday. I hope you have a great one and spoil yourself rotten :)
@DeborahUK Yep another May birthday so will save you cake LOL
@DeborahUK And that makes us both Taureans LOL very stubborn people but very loyal 
@dancingRainbow45
Indeed, I'm feeling very bullish! Must be the mention of cake 😋🍰
@DeborahUK haha
Ughh hate Mondays, but I am like that kitty, hanging in there! Hugs to everyone struggling on this Monday
Hard day in counseling regarding a time in my life long ago. Old questions without any answers it would seem. But today I did get some straight answers from my counselor about what probably happened regarding some decisions that were made on my behalf back then.
no counselor has ever just told me why certain things occurred the way they did. I'm glad my counselor didn't sugar coat it and I didn't even thank her. I forgot. I was trying to ponder the meaning of it all.
Still don't fully understand but I understand more than I did prior to today. Why I was committed against my will. Why it had to be that way. What had I done wrong? I hadn't wanted to hurt anyone I just wanted to stop hurting and it seemed it all went so wrong. Old, old things still lurking about. Why did she have to ask me question that I cannot answer about old hurts that can't be solved?
@themainjane
Ive been five days without my meds. I don't know why I just forgot to take them. Already the darkness and heaviness is hitting me. I hate it that I have to have them to be well. It makes me feel like I'm not enough by myself. That it takes medication to make me a "whole" person. I hate depression. I hate that it never goes away. It makes death feel like it's always looming, waiting for me to slip up. Waiting to get it's hands on me if I ever succumb to the dark. Gets old and tired fearing someday I will take my life. It's an evil haunting me and taunting me in moments like these. "You can never win. You will never be free. Give up, give in - why fight it?"
why do I fear taking my own life? I have the control and I will never stop resisting. Damn these pills though. Damn the abyss.
@themainjane
leavimg in a few hours for an overnight trip with my mother. I haven't slept and I'm dreading it (which makes me feel guilty). The last talk was good, the one in the country but this is too much too soon. How will we fill all the hours on the road?
I have to be on and I'm feeling depleted. I also know how ungrateful I am.