Traumatic Experiences Subcommunity- Daily Check-in: Tuesday, 4th April, 17
Hello my lovely friends :) How has Tuesday been treating you? Hope you're all doing well :) Thought of sharing a poem that wouldd help us appreciate our present more :) <3
Allow yourself to dream,
And when you do dream big
Allow yourself to learn
And when you do learn all you can
Allow yourself to laugh
And when you do share your laughter
Allow yourself to set goals
And when you do reward yourself as you move forward
Allow yourself love
And when you do you will find love in return
Allow yourself to be happy
And when you do you will influence others around you.
Allow yourself to be positive
And when you do life will get easier.
Hope this helps :) Have an amazing day <3 Here's a cool dog for you :D
@Avaray @vriska44 @Shadeshack @BeeLeigh @Faeryschild @dancingRainbow45 @Lavendermoonlight @KLM3278 @sujaypai @PuppyLove13 @vriska44 @sweetMelody95 @jr50 @agreeableKite4304 @PhoenixPatronus
Having an ok day, hope everyone is doing well!
@jr50 We hope that your day was great as well!
Love the poem puppy, who wrote it?
@PuppyLove13
@dancingRainbow45 I have no idea! It's an anonymous writer online but seemed very apt for us :)
@PuppyLove13 Hi puppy, I hope you're doing well today! My day is good so far :)
@happycloud7o9 Glad it's been good 💓
I'm having a bad day where all I want to do is hide under the covers, self harm or get drunk. Guess I'll settle for hiding under the covers.
I feel like something bad is going to happen and I'm the one that's going to make it happen. I have to fight against this feeling and these urges.
The sad thing is that I'm struggling in my mind with things that will never be resolved yet they won't seem to let me go. Or maybe I'm the one who's unwilling to let go. Same end result either way.
@themainjane Hi Jane, Im sorry your feeling bad and feel the urges you do. Hiding under the duvet is a safer option but Im wondering what makes you feel as though something bad is going to happen? Whats been happening for you to feel this way lately? Im pleased though you have reached out here and try and remain strong and find support here, rather than hurt yourself. I can appreciate when things feel pretty bad it can make you question if things ever get any better, but they do. I guess part of that is wanting that to happen and having a little belief things can change. I know its not always easy to believe that, I really do, but things can change for the better, but it does take time and a lot of hard work and commitment to keep trying. Stay strong jane you can learn to cope without needing to hurt you. You have been hurt enough :)
@dancingRainbow45
Thank you for your kind words. It means a lot to be acknowledged.
My counselor said she thought I had complex ptsd but I don't think she's right. I don't have bad dreams or flashbacks. Not in regards to things at least. But I've been ruminating on something that always triggered me and it still is even though it's long gone and inconsequential. When I can't understand things and I fear the meaning I used to turn to alcohol. I almost drank today and that would set off a bad chain of events. That is what I meant by causing bad things - pain and chaos, bringing them on myself.
I want to believe this can be solved. I'm not sure it can but I appreciate the thought.
@themainjane I hope you can stay strong and I hear you when you say you dont feel or believe this can be sorted, but I hope that in knowing others who have gone through trauma have come out the other side and some of whom are now supporting others, can give you the hope that you too can make it. Drinking is always your choice of course, but as you said it will only serve to set off a bad chain of events and drinking can also worsen depression. I guess its about deciding if its worth putting yourself through that, or trying something different. Hope you manage to find another way of getting through this bad patch
@dancingRainbow45
Thanks again. And I am wanting to try something different. I need to turn off the voice that says I will always fail, always be drawn back into old ways of coping. Obviously I'm not someone who likes to sit with unpleasant emotions or thoughts but I guess it's worth a try to see what's on the other side.
@themainjane It sounds like you are experiencing a lot right now. If you want to talk about it, feel free to message a listener. We all care for you and want to help!
@audreey
Thank you so much for your words of support.
I'm terrified of therapy tonight 😬🤐😖🤢
@BeeLeigh We are here if you need to talk about your feelings! You are not alone in this!
@audreey
It wasn't as bad as I thought it was gonna be. I might not be as scared next week. I don't know. Maybe. I guess we'll see. Either way, tonight was good 
I believe in all of you!