Domestic Violence Support Community - how do you feel today?

Really awfully bad right now and I'm trying to just go with the flow and remind myself that tomorrow is another day and will hopefully be a better one.

Numb and lost.

Numb and confused but trying to stay positive. I am safe and away from that narcissistic abuser and my life is my own now.

Feeling overwhelmed and stressed.

Hi all

I feel really low and don't know what to do with my life. Can't cope with all this stress anymore .I need help.

I was with my ex for 2 and a half years hes a very violent person before I got pregnant at 19 him.and I use to be okay sort of he starting changing after together for a year he seemed off why did I leave then I didn't know all the signs I thought its cause men change when I found out I was 8wks pregnant he went off the rails tried to punch my stomach kept saying it wasn't his he doesn't want it he would strangle me hit me yell at me throw things at me when I touched his phone he would strangle me when I asked him what's he hiding on his phone he would abuse me every day and night I made best friends with the wall he would chase me out of the unit lock me outside or lock me inside I cried so much had panic attacks cause of him he made me sit there and watch porno stuff even made my daughter watch it when I tried to leave he would yell at me and pull my arm back when I forgot something at the shops he would abuse me and hit me I couldn't rest when I was pregnant I was made to change his car tyre as well I got punched for crying punched for talking to my friends he also abused my daughter for crying laughing playing he damaged my wrist and both my ribs he raped me few months after giving birth so I didn't heal properly I screamed in pain tried to push him off of me but he dug his knees and hands deeper into me he done everything in front of my daughter now I'm going to court soon cause he wants my daughter at the age of 3 till 2019 over night sleep overs unsupervised he cant be trusted he out my daughter in danger so many times he doesn't care about my baby girl he's selfish he only wants my daughter to mess her life up even more I didn't put reports in cause he took my money used up all my money on my phone I was scared and he wouldn't let me leave the house half the time when I did it felt like I was being watched Mt daughter and I are happy were both safe away from him he doesn't know where I am where were living I don't want him to have my baby unsupervised he can't be trusted

Thank you I just wanted to put this up here I needed it all out and I feel a bit better talking about it more thank you

I have a serious question. Someone please answer me, because it feels like Im losing my sanity and that Im being forced to feel as if all that had happened never did. The physical abuse stopped only 2 or less years ago when I seeked help. The physical abuse still happens sometimes from other parties (But I am asking about the main one which stopped almost two years ago) The mental abuse is still there from all of them. lol. I was wondering if it stopped, does it mean it never happened??? Because I still have to deal with the consequences, I have so many mentall illnesses now and I believe it is from that. I am suffering from depression and I used to have severe socail anxiety and severe OCD. The later two got a bit better and are a bit under control. But this family makes it seem to me as if all the freaking abuse never happened in the past and its driving me insane. I know what happened. I know what I felt. I was there. It happened to me. And to make it as if all is fine is just bothering me so much. And I failed in uni and I am not blaming anyone for that. And maybe there isnt any correlation but my life is hell. And I want out of here. I tried suicide but I didnt die. I am sick of this shit!!! All my dreams shattered like glass and so did I. I hope my choice of words made things easier to understand I dont know how to really explain things lol.

I want to leave. I know it's taken a roll on my kids but I I'm holding myself back til the situation is better. More money, someplace stable to go, etc. Maybe it'll never be perfect. Then what? Then when will I leave? I really don't know...

Well today I feel like my family hates me

Lost angry confused and severely overloaded