I feel lost and dont wanna get out of bed

This is hard for me to speak about but i need to talk about it okay so i am a very caring women im always giving secound chances. I worry about everyone and everything anyways my dads a drug addict been that way his whole life in and out of prison my whole life. Well i went check on him went to his house and he wasnt there but when i walked in the door carved into the wall with im assuming a knife was the ten commandments but not the way it was orginallg wortten instead he had written on the wall thy shall kill they shall rape etc etc and then i saw thy shall breed his daughters when i saw that i ran out the house and left the town. I havent been the same since my dads in jail right now but im not okay after seeing it. And then on top of it im not sure if he molested me as a kid im all messed up and im channeling it with anger and depression i havent been able to move much ive had nightmares cry myself to sleep.