S*xual abuse memories coming back?
Hello everyone, this js my first post on here and I hope I'm not writing this in the wrong place. Today has been very hard for me emotionally, I am restless, frustrated, feel aggressive towards myself... a couple of hours ago I was having a bit of a panic attack and this image/feeling came into my head of TRIGGER WARNING//// two of my cousins (that have already done things to me when we were little) pushing a toy soldier into my privates.
I don't know what to make of this. It felt disturbing when it came to me and I don't know if it was real or not, but the feelings are very real. I feel like I'm going insane. I see my therapist tomorrow and I think I'll tell her about it, but how can I begin to explain this?? I just needed to vent, thank you very much for reading. I wrote the image down just in case it'll get "covered up" again..
@GrumpyCorn1742 Unexpected/confusing memories of abuse are difficult to deal with. Be strong, and let us know how your session went/how you are doing today <3
@ZeppelinsOverhead
Hi, thank you for the reply! My session was really good, but my therapist told me that she doesn't want us to start trauma processing now, because I'm not stable enough to work through everything at the moment and she needs to be sure I won't fatally hurt myself. I think that as long as I don't think about it too much, it's gonna be fine.
@GrumpyCorn1742 Sounds like you are very patient with yourself (: that's awesome!
@GrumpyCorn1742
It is terrible and you are so strong for talking about this!
