Finding it hard to pinpoint which situation was actually trauma
All of my experiences fit into one spot all together in my mind, and because I'm so detached from most of them(cause my whole life has just been a series of traumatic events) I am having trouble recognizing what event is a traumatic one or just a normal *** experience..and I apologize for the TMI but I should be able to tell the difference between being drugged and gang raped and watching my mom get beat up right? Or ate they both traumatic?
@tinkgood17
They are both severely traumatic and I'm heartbroken you had to experience any of this!
No wonder, you've closer yourself off to such violent memories!
My heart goes out to you!
I genuinely think it might be most helpful if you both get specialised support to begin to even know how to work through this!
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I can’t pretend to know what it feels like to go through what you’ve described. Your pain is real, and I don’t want to reduce it to advice (ofcourse) when what you probably need is someone to just acknowledge it. Both the things you mentioned are traumatic there’s no debate there. The fact that your brain struggles to separate them, it’s just what happens when pain stacks up too high for too long. Sometimes I wonder if trauma is like a fog it doesn’t erase the road, but it makes every direction look the same. And when you’re in it, you keep asking: “Was that the real danger, or was it the other one?” Maybe the truth is it’s all danger when you’re in survival mode. I don’t have answers, but I’ll say this: the fact you can put your story into words, even when it’s messy, is proof you’re still pushing back against that fog. And maybe that’s where the strength lies not in clarity, but in the courage to write when everything feels blurred. If you can, you should find trauma-informed therapy (EMDR, somatic therapy, or CBT for trauma). Not every therapist understands trauma you needs one who specializes in it.
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Thanks so much for everyone support, I was so worried I was gonna freak people out or not make any sense, yall ate so helpful
They're both traumatic, and you have every right to feel or not feel any emotion. We love you and we support you *hugs* <3