Hi I'm a teen and would like to share my family problems u can skip to line 17 to start the main problem

My parents got divorced a few times .my dad left my mom when she was pregnant because he wanted a boy not a girl (I'm my mom's second girl w him) i didnt know until over a whole decade passed he said it out of anger I found out I have two step siblings a GROWN woman and a little boy Abt my age but younger yes I was extremely mad but at the same time I know my mom had done bad she was talking to men and my mom's family is trouble and I know that they where constantly dragging my dad into trouble and asking for money wish yes he does have a lot of money and a lot of businesses but at the same time he was abusive and had anger issues but that isn't an excuse for abuse I do remember having a stepdad barely I knew him for a year when I was 4-5 he had CHILDREN and a WIFe honestly idc i dont see him anymore thé main things is both my parents have cancer Wich it is gods choice i can't change that but I don't know who to live with m'y mom is Very loving and caring she does get child support but sometimes she is kinda stingy and cheap when she buys herself very good and nice stuff while she buys us smt months ago and when I mention needing smt she says ask ur dad or wait until u see ur dad I do love her but if we are you're daughters you should be able to afford us yes I know she is sick but her bills are covered and she has a nice job and people supporting her on the other hand my dad can afford all of our expenses can spoil us treat us good but he has anger issues and he is EXTREMELY sick he has cancer and various diseases he is getting treatment for them but has anger issues and I have some trauma that I'm not comfortable sharing that includes him moral is do I choose wealth and stability but little love or a lot of love and low stability and wealth please guys help