Lowkey just want my mom and never my dad (tw for rant)
No matter what I do my dad is convinced he’s the wisest man ever and always says I don’t try hard enough. He’s also pretty bigoted but that is aside the point right now. Just finished sophomore year of high school and got lots of congrats from basically everyone I know and also had fun with a friend today. Dad just says my grades aren’t good enough and that I need to try harder. Im gonna be real in that I have been waiting to turn 18 for ages now so I can go no contact. Or at least only when absolutely necessary contact. I mean he gaslights me and says that I’m brainwashed especially if im mad at him cuz he feeds me, houses me half the time (2 weeks on/off with mom), and gives me money and says I should be grateful for the bare minimum. Of course he’s just about the most emotionally abusive person ever I mean I could say more but idk too tired and trying to be considerate of y’all’s emotions as well. Anyways I totes crashed out at him like 10 mins ago which was messy but like I don’t even care I just want to be free of this absolute garbage. And my mom is so sweet and understanding idk why they ever liked each other. I’m just so grateful for her and all my friends and this app cuz I’m a year and a half fruit ninja free and I’d love to stay that way. But istg dads are so eughhfhjfhfhjfjfjf. Also advice tho should I appeal to the court for full custody to my mom cuz I wanna do that but also I use my tablet for work and he might shut it off plus it’s expensive to pay for and he’s gonna be paying for my phone soon most likely. It’s irritating how confident he is too like eughthgh. Oh and my tablet is for my work (I’m a poet in my town and I need all the online storage I can get lolz). Anyways I’m feeling very keyboard smash prone and conflicted and I can’t believe he says I don’t try hard enough when he’s a musician who can’t keep a band and also a freakin DoorDash driver and he’s talking about success smh. Anyways sorry goodnight tho.
Hi @catpoet009.
I'm glad you shared that and got that off your chest..
I hope you get the freedom you desire... I have recently went no contact with my dad as well.
I did it because I expect more out of life now than I did in the past.
Good luck with your future 🌟
@catpoet009 Your dad sounds very narcissistic and that is not good. Has he ever put his hands on you? Does he whisper sabotaging words to you do no one else will hear? Does he talk about you especially in front of your friends?
Google narcissistic father's and their sons and read every article you can and see if he's not a narcissist person.
God bless you;-)
Yeah he’s definitely a narcissist but thankfully he’s never physical, just a jerk. Thanks for your support ❤️
@catpoet009 — I tried but I don't think it went through. I was raised by my narcissistic mother who was also my adopted daughter but under her breath she'd say you are not my daughter but do not tell your dad I said that. She had me beyond terrified.
Sounds like he is ashamed bc he knows he cannot keep a band and he's not successful and now he thinks he knows it as well so all his anger is directed at you so you will never be successful. Make sense?. But don't let that fool you because I'm here to tell you this but your father has a personality disorder called narcissism and they don't love their children as narcissistic parents. They are incapable if love for themselves or others especially their own children. You are never going to please him so stop trying too. You will drive yourself crazy trying to please him not to mention waste your life bc it's never going to happen.
I want you to Google narcissistic father's and their daughters or sons and read every article you can on the subject bc knowledge is power. No contact is best but call the DV HOTLINE at 800-799-7233 bc they will help with parental narcissistic abuse or spousal narcissistic abuse as well. Your father may get mad if you leave so you call the hotline and they will help you create a get away plan SAFELY. That's the most dangerous time if you tell them you are leaving but DON'T TELL HIM. Be aware at all times when your home alone with him. Reach out if you have too.
We h8 d@niel in this household
Unfortunately I've met cats dad smh. I'll always come over even tho I have to see his ugly face
Love u twin 🌸
We h8 d@niel in this household
Unfortunately I've met cats dad smh. I'll always come over even tho I have to see his ugly face
Love u twin 🌸