My worst night of 2026 was yesterday and idk what to do

Hiya...so last night was one of the worst nights of 2026 so far. (Trigger Warning) : I had horrible nightmares that stemmed from smth that happened at home

Idk if it is ok to say this here but I've been SA'd in the past and I live with my family right now but even though the "worst SA" experience wasn't from their end, I still got triggered because there's some level of SA that happened from their end in the past (i won't go in detail for everyone's benefit). I'll just say that I don't feel very safe in my house but I dont have the money to just leave and live somewhere else.

Anyway, I was in shock and couldn't sleep but i tried a lot of grounding techniques and it was already 8 am by the time I finally fell asleep.

I ended up getting horrible nightmares where I was getting abused and kidnapped. And I obviously woke up with a lot of distress and anxiety. I have spent a lot of time trying to tell myself that I will be okay but I don't think I'm able to believe it yet.

I am new to the city that I'm currently in, and it's a small town filled with judgemental aunties and creepy men. There's no where to go on my own, and home isn't very friendly either. Im not able to meet anyone who I can get along with, and I've ended up isolating myself even more. Because I don't want creepy men to stare at me when I leave home. I love socialising in real life but also while gaming etc. Im not sure how can I reduce this isolation and increase my sanity here.

I've no idea how I will survive here till I find a way to leave / get a job. Which will take a lot of time. I am trying to find volunteering opportunities but that also won't happen for few good months. Im going insane and there's no funds for therapy. I know this is a lot to read i can't even tell u how much it is to live with...im reaching out for some support... thank you for reading <3