Narcissistic father hit me
Trigger warning : physical abuse
I didn't think I could be more traumatized. For the past months, I actually survived narc parents. I learned to not react, and it's way calmer. But for my " father" it was calm until explosion. This morning, he physically attacked me for the first time. And I bursted crying. I just can't anymore. He first started to scream at my face, way too close, without letting me space, and my sister hit me with her home-shoes. I couldn't defend myself. So I used my tactic of mocking him, and saying everything that he does, with " I " instead. But at one moment, when I said I " humiliate him in front of others" which he does, he violently pushed me or something else, I forgot, and so as an instinct, I screamed for help. So he put his hands on my mouth violently, and I was suffocated. I didn't know what to do. The more I'd scream, the more he would suffocated me. I thought I could defend myself, but he's stronger than me, my mother. He's way too strong. He could do whatever he wants. I was so scared but even more angry. I couldn't stop myself. I was even angrier. I screamed, cried, everything. I feel so lost and so hopeless. It's the first time he physically hits me. Before, it was just mother, and he was emotionnally abusive only. It's getting worse! I can protect myself from emotionnal abuse, but not physical. And in my country, it's normalized. I don't know what to do. I need help ...
@oliveSailboat9838
I’m so sorry that happened to you. I don’t understand places in the world where it’s “normalized.” It’s not publicly normalized in my country, but it still happens. I was abused in my family too. I went to the police and asked to be removed from the home, but they just called my parents, so I was right back to where I started.
I did my best to avoid confrontations, or do anything that would set my parents off. In fact, I tried not to be noticed at all.
I hope you stay safe, and make it through your growing up years without injury.
Please call support if it's only getting worse you have proof to show what this man is doing to you. Please know you can't be taking hits day after day. He is filled with hate and it will only get worse. Trust me. I had a father who was abusive when I was a kid and my mom stayed with him because she thought it was okay but it's not. It really isn't. No person should go through that. If you have a chance to escape or get help. Do it. Don't hesitate. Your life and safety is most important. I hope you can find a way to get out of that horrible situation. Please know you don't deserve any of that. You deserve safety.
Please call support if it's only getting worse you have proof to show what this man is doing to you. Please know you can't be taking hits day after day. He is filled with hate and it will only get worse. Trust me. I had a father who was abusive when I was a kid and my mom stayed with him because she thought it was okay but it's not. It really isn't. No person should go through that. If you have a chance to escape or get help. Do it. Don't hesitate. Your life and safety is most important. I hope you can find a way to get out of that horrible situation. Please know you don't deserve any of that. You deserve safety.