Relationship OCD
When I was 5, my father used to alienate me and blame my mom's adultery on me. I used to think it's because I am not gof enough. Though I am not in a relationship, I have been getting so many ruminating thoughts about future romantic relationships where I havcfear of replaced, where I feel so insecure and hurt. I just don't know why and it scares me. Even though I never been in a romantic relationship.
@Mogens2221
Thank you so much for being so vulnerable and sharing this. it sounds incredibly heavy to carry all those fears about the future, especially when it stems from such painful memories from when you were just five years old. <3
it is completely understandable that you feel so scared and insecure about romantic relationships, even if you haven't been in one yet. when a parent puts such a massive and unfair burden on a little kid, it makes total sense that your mind is now trying to protect you from getting hurt again by anticipating the worst. you were just a child, and you absolutely did not deserve to be blamed or made to feel like you were not good enough.
those ruminating thoughts about being replaced are just those old childhood wounds trying to make sense of everything. please be really gentle with yourself right now. you are so worthy of feeling secure, and those things your father said to you were never your fault or your burden to carry.
you rock keep rocking
yours warmly, snow <3
Thank you so much for saying this. It's just hard. I am trying my best to follow healthy coping mechanisms. And you're Right I should be gentle with myself. Thank you.
