TW loss death and family

we putting this here as it not just on one thing but few things this hard post for us to make just a lot of feelings and scared of judgment 

beginning  of  January  our  oldest brother was murdered and the killer tied our parents up brother lived in their yard in a like tiny house on wheels he has always freeload off them even when he was married with his kids he been married few times  

we really at first was in shock when we found out he been murdered but  we at first only got very small amount of information from dad he left out that him and mom was tied up so sounded to us  like the person did not go into their home but that was not true we upset he did not tell us right out all this we found out on FB

this brother was  one that sexually abused us from 3yr to about 10yr he even after that made a lot of sexual comments to us even after we was adult he also physically   abused us as a child the verbal emotional and mental abuse  really all our life until we moved may 2017 so we feel sad but relieved too in many ways but angry at others in family

seem they not telling us important things like we did not know when his service was learned after it by posts on FB also seem they really not care what going on with us as far as graving as if we not at all he was our brother even if he hurt us we still love him but they not really care

then only few days after he was killed our other brother wife died we not think we would have been told but was only because we called dad he was like there more bad news then told us so with both things happening at begging of this year we been having hard time as it added to our already health issues that a lot too

no one seems to care how we feeling also how we coping with stuff even after we posted on FB we was having surgery again only a friend and ex sis in law even commented on the post it like we not even part of our family at all

but this started before we even moved truth is started when we lost our kids to government and parental rights we always felt like they did not care even as a kid but this new stuff adding to all the other trauma we had in life but again seems no one cares in our family

but few offline friends and others have said things that was helpful like we sorry for your loss also that must be very hard your brother being murdered online on cups we very very thankful for everyone that listened some over and over but we feel we been heard and supported at times too

no one can truly understand fully how we be with all this going on but everyone can listen and support us as been happening here on 7 cups so thank you to all that been doing that it makes a different too