i don’t know how to get through it (non crisis)
I don’t know how to forget what he said to me over and over. I don’t know how to forget the words “you are the reason i tried to K/O myself” i feel destroyed inside and i keep going in and out of knowing it truly wasn’t my fault and that it was. i tried my best beforehand to have a communicative friendship and be there for him. i never lied or hid my true feelings but in the end i don’t think that truly mattered. i’m torn apart, everyone is blaming me. i’m being blamed for telling him i don’t have feelings for him and i shouldn’t be taking it to heart but why are so many people against me? is saying that bad? i keep rethinking over to myself i should have gave in just to make everyone happy, to lose myself. would that have been better? i can’t help but be stupid and think i should have lied just to keep the peace between the people in my life just so they wouldn’t control me or tell me something is wrong with me. i don’t know how to let it go.
@LielyMon281 It sounds like your surrounded by people who are trying to make you feel guilty and bad for making some decision to not be with someone including the person who you decided to not be involved with who is repeatedly telling you “you are the reason i tried to K/O myself”
I think you made a good decision and it sounds like you believe this also until these people in your life say things trying to make you feel bad again sometimes its good to stop and think about the people in your life and what they add to your life and how they affect you and change what you can