A Raven's Eye

working out the bugs

@ruffneckred So, Red. What do you think? Does the posting to Thread work better (e.g. less of a hunt?) When it brings you to the diary, which page is it bringing you to?.

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Can I help?

@ruffneckred

Sending you good thoughts

Thanks for your concern, I am at a loss. I thought we had good talks, I even helped them a bit. Had words a few hours before supper and now the entire account is gone. Of course I am blaming myself, and also running through all the doomsday scenarios. I suppose this is the nature of all online anonymous acquaintenances, but I will hope for closure of some kind. Not sure if I will seek a new listener immediatlely, so confused and sad.

@ruffneckred

Oh man. That's rough. It probsbly doesn-t help you, bht I saw a thread somewhere a few days ago, where they were talking about the different reasons a Listener might suddenly ot be available and what a shock it might be to the Member.

It seems to happen alot, and it's really pretty devastating. I knew a few other people on this site that has happened to. 😝😔😟

It's challenging enough to open up and share our difficulties but then to have them just....disappear.💔💢

I hope you'll be gentle with yourself. Maybe do something you love like walk your pup (hmm might be too dark for that in ND @ the moment. 🌘🌘).

Someone gave me a great visual once:

Imagine your mind like a big spacious playroom. And a child you love has just come into the room to play.

There are all sorts of wonderful things to play with, but the beloved child keeps running to this big ball with huge metal spikes sticking out of it in every direction: no matter which way they pick it up, they're going to get hurt.

And you say to child, with all the love and strength in the world, " Honey, put the ball down."

We do that to ourselves with unproductive or harmful thoughts: we hurt what should most love.

Honey, put the ball down!

G'night Red. Rest well. 💝

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Sending you comfort, and kindness and safe hugs if you want them! I'm sorry you're sad.

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@ruffneckred

"had words"..... a disagreement?

@ruffneckred stay and talk some more if you like. ☺

Thanks for the kind words. I will be fine, I tend to attach to easily and deeply. I also take things to extemes, which is a trait of some type of mental disorder, I have trouble remembering. The words we had were just talk, they had issues, I have issues, we shared. As I recall the now deleted conversation, I have two things that make me pause. 1. she had issues with her hubby, maybe they had an issue and her time on 7cups was a problem for him. He was really into gaming and from the outside one could say neglecting his wive's emotional needs. Could be she confronted about the gaming and he countered with the 7cups time. The other item that concerns me is they are somewhat newlyweds, expecting, and struggling with starting a family. I am at the end of marriage, unless I am able to pull off a minor miralcle, which I fully intend to do.... anywho, maybe seeing the 30 year result of a relationship that didn't start well made her see me as a bad influence, sort of cut out the toxic person so she could focus on her own issues. I will likely never know, but it hurts me deeply that I may have caused somewhat who has been nothing but extremely nice to me any harm. . Good grief, if I could make money babbling....