I feel guilty for being/wanting to be happy.
I recently went through a traumatic experience and have been experiencing nightmares, anxiety, trust issues etc. all the good stuff. A few days ago, i met with someone and after talking to them i felt a lot better. When i got home i was laughing at tv shows and even got excited making plans for the future. I even volunteer as a listener here,i was better. Then the next day when i woke up, i got anxious and nervous. In fact everytime i woke up i feel terrified. I tried to manage it by focusing on positive distractions and on the rare occasions where i do feel relaxed and happy, i immediately stop myself. Its like my mind is telling me "what are you so happy about, you are not completely safe" " I don't think u should be happy" I guess, I feel like i don't deserve to feel happy because everything that has happened was my fault. I don't know, i feel like i need to get this of my chest. I feel guilty for being happy. Has any of you went through similar situation?
@intuitiveFarm3142
You have the right to be happy and feel happy! It's the least you deserve after what happened to you. It sounds like there's quite a bit of anxiety there, so have you spoken to your doctor about how you're feeling? They may be able to help you.
@SilentSerenityy im probably going to the doctor soon, definately going to discuss with them about my anxiety and nightmares. I guess right now i should work on getting rid of the guilt. I do want to feel happy again.