I guess this is my story...

Well Im not sure how this app works and let alone if anyone is going to read this but Im tired of crying myself to sleep so....here I go,

my traumatic events started at a very early age. I was the center of my alcoholic parents abusive fights and the one who took all the backlash when it came to my sisters. For years it was constantly about my weight and not being good enough to live or eat. Then my parents abandoned me to live at the bar but beat me when they came home. This lasted for years into high school. Then I met a guy who I thought the world of but ended up getting raped and sexually assaulted. Then a another year later got it even worse..I was assaulted so badly I needed a hospital and the only thing I could do was fix it on my own. By then I thought life could get any worse through the abuse and rape. Once agin I was wrong. My ex boyfriend forced himself upon me and forcefully got me pregnant...I planned to keep the child but...he abused me so badly at 12 weeks I lost my son all alone on the bathroom floor. The pain still haunts me and I constantly feel empty. I buried him alone...but in the end as I was raised I continue to take the blame and blame myself for it all...and thats my story.